Lately...
Lately, i don't know why but I just feel, inadequate I guess. I don't play well enough for Stiles. I try, like seriously the last playing test, I practiced. and I was proud of myself and when I told Stiles that he laughed and told me how everyone was better than me. And I'm not appreciative enough for my mom. She does alot of stuff for me and according to her, I do nothing but sit around here on my lazy butt and let her house get dirty. I don't do anything good enough for my dad. I can never "acchieve my potential" like he wants me to. I could always make better grades, or I could always help my mom out more, or I could always be nicer to my sister. Which is another thing. My sister thinks, I suppose, that since she's not nice to any of us in the house that we have to be extra super nice to make up for her not nice-ness. and I hate it. and no matter what I do, it's my fault. when she kicks me out of my bathroom it's my fault for taking more than my alotted 30 seconds, what was I thinking? And I'm never dedicated enough for my coaches, and I don't work hard enough for my boss, and I don't work hard enough for my teachers, and the list goes on. I really wsh I could be perfect for you guys. because to me, you are all so perfect and wonderful yourselves. I wish I could make you uys as happy as you make me.