maybe its just me...
I don't know why but I kinda feel lost. like I'm out of the loop. like people have forgotten about me. and stopped caring. I don't mean that you guys don't like me anymore or anything like that. I just feel like I'm drifting away from everyone. and some of them are drifting from me. I'm trying really hard to keep them tho. really I am. I made Liz and Hayley Valentimes and I was so excited to give it to them. but I didn't see them and it made me sad. and it makes me sad that me and hayley aren't like best friends cuz we have so much in common and I think shes terrific fun. I remember liking her when I first met her because she seemed like she had the same sense of humor as me. and I thought she was pretty. I like her eyes. and i went in to an antique shop a few weeks ago and kept telling myself that this summer when I have money i'm gonna buy one of those lunchboxes for hayley because shes neat like that and collects weird lunch boxes. and its sad that me and K¾stle don't talk as much as we used to. its cuz swim season is over. I see her every day and we all hang out but sometimes I feel like people forget k¾slte like they forget me because we're both weird like that and people don't think about us all the time and I feel like relate to her. but I miss her. even if i do see her every day. I miss kristi the most tho. man there was a time when me and kristi... we were tight yo. haha like serious me and kristi did amost everything together. and I love her so much. and we always have so much fun together. but I feel like we're not as close anymore and it makes me sad. and Blakie. it makes me cry to remember Blakie. this summer man, you couldn't keep us apart. we got so close this summer. I was better friends with Blakie then i ever have been with anyone. I told him everything and there wasn't aything in the world i wouldn't have trusted blake with. and then... then things happened and we grew apart. man, I'm crying just telling you guys this. see how many people I'm losing? I feel like I'm already lost. but there are some good things. I feel like i get closer to japers every day. and it makes me smile. because we have stupid little arguments that we don't mean. and we take naps together. and we play video games and people say we're cute together. and me and linder are still as close as ever. and I tell her everything about everything. and i trust her more than just aobut anyone. and those two together are the reason i smile. but I think I'm gonna go take another bath. I love you kids. I still do. really.