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Lalalala.
I am not even really sure how to start this entry off. My mood is really weird because I am not really able to put a word to describe it. I am not happy nor sad. I am not okay nor great nor really bad. I just am, and it's the oddest feeling. I guess I would have to say I am more of a happy mood than a sad mood. It is more like... I have a lot of energy. Almost too much to deal with and my mind is even cramping from it.
Anyhow, this week is over and it's Saturday and I am so happy. I am so sick of working my ass off. I have been hauling ass in school because I am trying to not suck at life and get somewhere. I think a lot of people understand "Yes. High school does not last forever. Yes I want to do this and this and this." But what I do not think a lot of people do understand is that would mean you have to do something to make that happen! Nothing just happens. You have to work for it. You have to earn it, and I am seriously trying to earn what I can. We are in high school, so those who have slacked and done jack shit in the past couple years can still have hope to fix what they have done, or not done. Anyhow, I decided next year to take an overload at school. This would include Honors College English 11, AP Psychology, Creative Writing, News Lab, US History [so I better get Mr Helm or I will kill a man.], Chemistry 1 andd Adv. Algebra. Funfunfunfun. Whatever. That year will be easy compared to my senior year when I will really be hauling ass... part time anyhow. I already know I am taking AP Biology, Honors College English 12, History of Russia and Asia, Adv. Creative Writing, and Calculus. Yayayay. Since that is only 4 credits, that means I only stay until 4th hour, which also means... I love life. I am going to get a part time job and earn college moneyzz.
So, I totally have decided that even though I absolutely love my WCATY friends. They are my family and soulmates and I have no idea what I would do without them. But, I have decided that I am going to take a break from WCATY get togethers. Like, its totally subtracting from how I felt at WCATY on the first day. I want that excitement. It's really what makes it so great is that you go back and everything is the same and we are all the same and it's exciting because you get to see these people who you love to death for the first time in months. Maybe for the first time all year. I want to hug everyone on the first day like how I hugged Danneka and Julie on Sunday. I want to hug everyone like how I hugged Kara when I saw her, or when I saw Meghan. That is how it is suppose to be. And it's just really how I love it. While it may kill me and others inside, I can hold out only because I know that on June 17th I won't be able to sleep and on June 18th... I will probably throw up a couple times from my nervous stomach. It's how it is suppose to be!
Tonights plans include Alicia coming over and watching movies and eating pizza and probably talking because those are three things we do best. Talk, Eat, and Watch the TV. Yayyayyay! I love hanging out with Alicia. ^.^ She keeps me sane.
I think the last thing I want to mention is.... I saw Danneka and Julie and it was the happiestartatjdfghfklghlka day ever. evereverever. I love love love love them sososososoo much. I am really hoping Danneka can go back to WCATY. I totally want to room with her. Like, it so would not be the same without her there. What the hell am I going to do without her? We had the best times together and like when I was sad she was the one who sat with me and talked to me and combed my hair. And GOD! What the hell. I miss her. I miss living with her. I cannot wait because from the sounds of things... she is likely to be going back, which is so freaking sweet. Srsly. Ahhh. I love life. And, like... one thing that I have to wonder is... what the hell are we all going to do without Julie? Who is going to take all the pictures? Seriously though. That girl took... soo... many... freaking... pictures. Goddamn. Ah... I guess that if Val or I end up bring a videocamera we will be set. I will probably bring my camera even if it says I cannot. We can have some fun with that on sleepover nights. Yay!
Mmmm. So, have a lovely Saturday<3.