So tearful
I dont know whats up with me, last night I stayed up till three as I thought I would watch Torchwood on BBC 3, and that set me off, for some bizare reason it really upset me, not sure why but I was in floods. So being the silly girl I am I related this all to Chris and phoned him in the wee hours of the morning to tell him how much I miss him....
Such a stupid, stupid thing to do, as I have been so good at hiding my feelings. Plus having acted like a blanent hussy the last few weeks, I did not really consider myself intitled to miss him. Anyhow he phones me today, to tell me Gerogia is coming here for Christmas, and I got off the phone and the tears started again. It seems so wrong that after such a short time she will be sharing Christmas with his family, it sort of sickens me. The logical part of me, knew that this would happen, but it just seems to soon. its silly as I know that when you spilt from someone, that their family is taken away as well. I guess I cant handle being so easiely replaced and it hurts.
Well need to pull myself together as out with the girls tonight.... will be the only Bridget there as nearly all smug marrieds, and that in itself is depressing... Shit!