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So I did it. I rejected him.
Not like, hardcore or anything, but it was still one of the most awkward experiences of my life. We were outside, alone. He had asked me if I wanted to help him finish the bowl we packed earlier, and I said I did, and so we went outside downstairs, far away from Rachel and Hattie and Caleb and Ollie, and we stood outside for a long time, first smoking the bowl and then smoking some cigarettes (we're both supposed to be quitting).
I was talking a lot, and he wasn't saying anything, which is the first sign that something is going on. He started touching me a lot, like he does, in not-so-obvious ways, and I kind of played into it. I guess I was hoping he wouldn't go that far. But then he brushed his thumb across the back of my neck and pulled me in close, and I bent my head to avoid looking at him. He leaned toward me, and I turned away and stepped back and it was SO AWKWARD.
We would have hooked up tonight if Hattie hadn't been lying right next to him. I know it.
And I can't decide if I want it or not.
Not like, hardcore or anything, but it was still one of the most awkward experiences of my life. We were outside, alone. He had asked me if I wanted to help him finish the bowl we packed earlier, and I said I did, and so we went outside downstairs, far away from Rachel and Hattie and Caleb and Ollie, and we stood outside for a long time, first smoking the bowl and then smoking some cigarettes (we're both supposed to be quitting).
I was talking a lot, and he wasn't saying anything, which is the first sign that something is going on. He started touching me a lot, like he does, in not-so-obvious ways, and I kind of played into it. I guess I was hoping he wouldn't go that far. But then he brushed his thumb across the back of my neck and pulled me in close, and I bent my head to avoid looking at him. He leaned toward me, and I turned away and stepped back and it was SO AWKWARD.
We would have hooked up tonight if Hattie hadn't been lying right next to him. I know it.
And I can't decide if I want it or not.