excuses, excuses, excuses
i haven't been here for a REALLY long time and i feel terrible. but i'm here tonight reaching out to all of you because i need some support. i'm being tested tomorrow for cervical cancer. apparently a couple routine tests i had done came back with mid-grade dysplasia (precancerous cells) and i tested positive for HPV. so i get to go in, lay down on a table, spread my legs for the doctor, and have pieces of my cervix cut out and tested. fun fun fun. i'll be going alone because i told the boy i could do it by myself and now i'm regretting that decision. i'm scared.
i need a hug.
i need a hug.