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Soooo, I broke my toe last sunday in guard practice. Dropped a flag pole on it and shattered the distal phalange of my 5th toe. :-( Its pretty dissapointing cuz i've never broken a bone before... and i kinda wish it would have been a rifle or saber... anything but a stupid flag pole! I had to quit guard as well. I'm gunna miss hanging out with the girls. I wasn't really sure about them when i first met them, but it turns out i like all of them. Thats really strange cuz i almost never like people!!!! haha.. jk. But ya, hopefully i'll see em around every now and then. The season is almost over and i cant run or jump around for another 6 weeks... suck! I have to wear this stupid shoe... i hate it so much, but i would rather wear something i hate for 6 weeks than have a permanent broken toe.
School is going very eh now-a-days. I wish i felt more passionate about my major, but i'm in this rut right now and i cant quite figure out why. I'm very interested in the profession but i hate school! I always end up have a great time when i'm working as a PT tech, but it just seems when i have to sit down and do the grunt work (school) my enthusiasm fizzles out. (in case y'all haven't noticed yet... i cant spell!)
Jimmy and I are doing well. He makes me laugh. He bought me diamond earring for valentines day/2 year anniversery. ~~spoiled~~ :-D
I've realized that my personality has changed a lot the past 4 years. As a freshman I was very opptimistic and ready to conquer the world and for awhile i did. I had lots of friends and was very social back then. My sophmore year was terrible and I became very cynical and put up a lot of barriers, barriers that I still maintain till this day. Its taken awhile for me to realize that the person i've become isnt really who i want to be. Getting out of this personality that i've created is hard! I have a hard time talking to people, creating new friends, and being independent. When i get comfortable around people i tend to cling onto them cuz i know that good people are hard to come by. Thats another thing i've realized, yes i did have a lot of friends my freshman year, but it turns out some of those friendships were fleeting. The true friends in my life have not forgotten about me and i have not forgotten about them. When i'm in a situation where i have to meet new people i get very nervous and i'm sure i have some sort of social anxiety disorder... For awhile i thought about going to the doctor to get some sort of perscription, but i'm very hesitant to do this. i dont want to depend on a pill to create a persona that is acceptable to society. I would much perfer for me to do this myself, but its gunna take a lot of work, time, and faith. Maybe one of these days i'll figure out who i am!!! I just hope that day is commin soon! :0)
School is going very eh now-a-days. I wish i felt more passionate about my major, but i'm in this rut right now and i cant quite figure out why. I'm very interested in the profession but i hate school! I always end up have a great time when i'm working as a PT tech, but it just seems when i have to sit down and do the grunt work (school) my enthusiasm fizzles out. (in case y'all haven't noticed yet... i cant spell!)
Jimmy and I are doing well. He makes me laugh. He bought me diamond earring for valentines day/2 year anniversery. ~~spoiled~~ :-D
I've realized that my personality has changed a lot the past 4 years. As a freshman I was very opptimistic and ready to conquer the world and for awhile i did. I had lots of friends and was very social back then. My sophmore year was terrible and I became very cynical and put up a lot of barriers, barriers that I still maintain till this day. Its taken awhile for me to realize that the person i've become isnt really who i want to be. Getting out of this personality that i've created is hard! I have a hard time talking to people, creating new friends, and being independent. When i get comfortable around people i tend to cling onto them cuz i know that good people are hard to come by. Thats another thing i've realized, yes i did have a lot of friends my freshman year, but it turns out some of those friendships were fleeting. The true friends in my life have not forgotten about me and i have not forgotten about them. When i'm in a situation where i have to meet new people i get very nervous and i'm sure i have some sort of social anxiety disorder... For awhile i thought about going to the doctor to get some sort of perscription, but i'm very hesitant to do this. i dont want to depend on a pill to create a persona that is acceptable to society. I would much perfer for me to do this myself, but its gunna take a lot of work, time, and faith. Maybe one of these days i'll figure out who i am!!! I just hope that day is commin soon! :0)