I nicked name him bubble but because he has a bubble but
So Bubble But got scared I guess. I got kinda a little emoctional when we got too intimate. I got scared and turned off but I didn't want to pretend with him like I did with other guys like Peter Pan and Bird Man. I didn't want to pretend with him because I really liked him so I asked if we could stop. Thats when it happened I got terried eyed and turned away and he was so sweet about it. He didn't yell at me like Peter Pan or ignore it like other guys he held me and told me it was ok. I told him I was sorry for screwing it up and he said I didn't.
Thats the short version of what happened anyway. So about 2 weeks went by after this and he didn't call me. He said he was busy with work whatever. I was patient. I only sent him on text message to wish him Chag Samacha (happy Holiday right before succot) and then I called him before one Shabbat to wish him a Shabbat Shalom. That was it. I week after that he called me and texted messaged me on Simicha Torah but I didn't pick up becuase I was in a religious place. So I called him back the next day. I asked if he wanted to hang out that night and he said he couldn't because he had work the next morning. But then an hour later he said he wanted to come over with a friend and to make sure it was ok with my roomate. Well my roomate wasn't home and she was keeping a second day of yom tov so I couldn't call her. I told him I didn't know where she was so he said he would call me back in about an half an hour. I waited for like an hour he never called. Friends kept calling me telling me that they were in town and wanted to hang out and I told them i was waiting for a phone call. I should have said fuck it and then left. But no I was polite and I texted messaged to tell him that I didn;t know where my roomate was but he was still welcome to come over otherwise I am going to town. He said sorry he had work really early the next day. I was like thats fine but u could have told me earlier and then he said he was sorry again.
Look I get that he is probably confused and stuff but that is no excuse to me rude and in consideret to me. Who I am? The person who wants to call him and talk about this but I don't have the energy. I am thinking in my head call him but my handing is picking up the phone.
I am soo confused