I miss him blah blah
So I am sitting there in the center of town waiting for Ronen to come meet me. He lives right there in the center of town. Its 9 a clock in the morning. He obviously had just gotten out of bed. I see him come out of the corner wearing a grey wife beater, ripped jeans, and he was bare foot. SO Israeli!!! I love it! He came up gave me a kiss on the forehead took my hand and then we walked to his apartment. First we sat down in the like the living room area. Talked then we walked to his room and put on Yanni. I was amazed I thought he was going to jump on me. But he didn't instead we lied in his bed and cuddled. We talked a lot too. Later he had to go to the bank and he asked me if I wanted to go with him.
He said in his Israeli accent " Yeah you want to come with me to the bank, I need to open a bank account , we could open one together like we are a married a couple"
I laughed and said "First a bank account, then you are going to propose to be get married and then say lets move to the united states?"
He laughed too and said "Well, I do want to go live in New York for a bit."
We walked over to the bank and he held my hand again. We were sitting down wait to be called. He kisses me on the check and then on the hand. Afterward he started to look down like he was thinking really hard. He does that a lot. So I asked him what he was doing or what he was thinking so hard about. At first he couldn't get the words out then he said " well you know I kissed your hand and your check and I just want you too..." Then he paused and started tilt his head towards me running his hands through he long curly hair and I said " you want me to hold you" he said "well yeah, I want you to give me attention too." I was like "Aww thats all you want come here." I really want to show him affection like he shows me. I really do because I am a very affectionate person. But at the same time I really am having a hard time trusting him. Yes, he has been honest with which I apprciate but he doesn't want to be serious with me until I get back. In the mean time he is going do date other girls. There for I really want want to give him special attention. But I don't want to give it to him if he is going to be dating other girls.
Like I said before we exchanged e-mails and skype screan names. Early he was on for 5 minutes and didn't answer instant message. So ofcourse now I am feeling insecure. Blah Blah blah.
I feel like he wants his cake and to eat it too. He wants something serious. He wants to be intimate and affectionated with somebody.
I really like him and I fill like I should be optomistic about the sitaution. Cause like if he has to date other girls until I get back then he is obvioulsy not worth it. But I can't be picky at the same time because we just met about 2 weeks ago. I don't have the right to tell him he can't see other people while I am gone. I just have to hope and pray I guess. If I come back in September and he wants a realationship good. If I come back and he is with somebody else then it was good I left when I did because I could have gotten hurt, right?
He said in his Israeli accent " Yeah you want to come with me to the bank, I need to open a bank account , we could open one together like we are a married a couple"
I laughed and said "First a bank account, then you are going to propose to be get married and then say lets move to the united states?"
He laughed too and said "Well, I do want to go live in New York for a bit."
We walked over to the bank and he held my hand again. We were sitting down wait to be called. He kisses me on the check and then on the hand. Afterward he started to look down like he was thinking really hard. He does that a lot. So I asked him what he was doing or what he was thinking so hard about. At first he couldn't get the words out then he said " well you know I kissed your hand and your check and I just want you too..." Then he paused and started tilt his head towards me running his hands through he long curly hair and I said " you want me to hold you" he said "well yeah, I want you to give me attention too." I was like "Aww thats all you want come here." I really want to show him affection like he shows me. I really do because I am a very affectionate person. But at the same time I really am having a hard time trusting him. Yes, he has been honest with which I apprciate but he doesn't want to be serious with me until I get back. In the mean time he is going do date other girls. There for I really want want to give him special attention. But I don't want to give it to him if he is going to be dating other girls.
Like I said before we exchanged e-mails and skype screan names. Early he was on for 5 minutes and didn't answer instant message. So ofcourse now I am feeling insecure. Blah Blah blah.
I feel like he wants his cake and to eat it too. He wants something serious. He wants to be intimate and affectionated with somebody.
I really like him and I fill like I should be optomistic about the sitaution. Cause like if he has to date other girls until I get back then he is obvioulsy not worth it. But I can't be picky at the same time because we just met about 2 weeks ago. I don't have the right to tell him he can't see other people while I am gone. I just have to hope and pray I guess. If I come back in September and he wants a realationship good. If I come back and he is with somebody else then it was good I left when I did because I could have gotten hurt, right?