First Day of School
The day started out okay, like any other day, but then I Jinxed it(like always) and it ended up sucking. I have 2 classes where I know absolutly no one and I have to pretend to look at the fucking ceiling for the whole time. And everyone around you talks loud like you don't exist so you hear their dumb conversations. I got so bored at the end of the day that I decided to mess with my teacher's head.
I have Spanish for 6th period, and by that time I was out of my wits. This lady asks me to come up and tell her my parents' cell phone numbers. I don't know my dad's cell phone number since he never uses it, so I just made up some numbers. She bought it. I loved it. I made up his name too. Then I filled out a sheet she gave us, telling her our schedules, and I used a different handwriting. I used my left hand for all the vowels and put hearts over my i's.
That reminds me, I'm tired of trying to fit the stupid female model. I almost cried when I heard myself do the stupid girly, movie giggle today when I was talking to Manny. He must think I'm an empty bimbo. I would rather he not care and think I am some loser than him, or anyone for that matter, think THAT. I felt like appologizing all day long over an Adam Sandler Movie while eating Nachos. I appreciate nice clothes, I really do. But I'm so fucking tired that it's the only topic of conversation. Can't we talk about current events, likes and dislikes, but not what we are going to wear tommorrow? These girls aren't dumb, it's just I feel like such an outcast because I don't have the same "Love" they have for these things and I feel like I am defective(other than being fat and ugly and dumb.)
I have Spanish for 6th period, and by that time I was out of my wits. This lady asks me to come up and tell her my parents' cell phone numbers. I don't know my dad's cell phone number since he never uses it, so I just made up some numbers. She bought it. I loved it. I made up his name too. Then I filled out a sheet she gave us, telling her our schedules, and I used a different handwriting. I used my left hand for all the vowels and put hearts over my i's.
That reminds me, I'm tired of trying to fit the stupid female model. I almost cried when I heard myself do the stupid girly, movie giggle today when I was talking to Manny. He must think I'm an empty bimbo. I would rather he not care and think I am some loser than him, or anyone for that matter, think THAT. I felt like appologizing all day long over an Adam Sandler Movie while eating Nachos. I appreciate nice clothes, I really do. But I'm so fucking tired that it's the only topic of conversation. Can't we talk about current events, likes and dislikes, but not what we are going to wear tommorrow? These girls aren't dumb, it's just I feel like such an outcast because I don't have the same "Love" they have for these things and I feel like I am defective(other than being fat and ugly and dumb.)