school malaise and swine flu
florida is a scary place. hurricanes, retirement homes, gators, tim tebow... and now swine flu.
3 schools so far have been shut down for the week due to this pig-like influenza. but is my school? nope. we just all cough on each other and laugh. i don't have it. but knowing my unstable brain's tendency to convince me i possess physical medical maladies, i wouldn't be shocked if i were to soon develop a curly tail and a love of slop.
anyways, despite the somersaults in my head and the stationary blank residing in my heart, things are well - just fine. though the disdain i hold for monday will never ever end, i like to get back in to the schedule of the week. and i like that there is a mere month left of middle school! what the blood clot am i going to do this summer? hopefully avoid every pre-teen possible.
lately, i feel like i don't know the important things. how am i a teacher? i know that the fears and uncertainty i feel are a result of my gradual attempt to accept the changes in life. the distance between the present and past. the even greater distance between future and past. and the overwhelming power of just not knowing. any of it. i am a perfectionist - always have been. the scariest thing in the world sometimes is failure. and making the wrong decision is just that.
i don't want to fail. and i don't want swine flu.
3 schools so far have been shut down for the week due to this pig-like influenza. but is my school? nope. we just all cough on each other and laugh. i don't have it. but knowing my unstable brain's tendency to convince me i possess physical medical maladies, i wouldn't be shocked if i were to soon develop a curly tail and a love of slop.
anyways, despite the somersaults in my head and the stationary blank residing in my heart, things are well - just fine. though the disdain i hold for monday will never ever end, i like to get back in to the schedule of the week. and i like that there is a mere month left of middle school! what the blood clot am i going to do this summer? hopefully avoid every pre-teen possible.
lately, i feel like i don't know the important things. how am i a teacher? i know that the fears and uncertainty i feel are a result of my gradual attempt to accept the changes in life. the distance between the present and past. the even greater distance between future and past. and the overwhelming power of just not knowing. any of it. i am a perfectionist - always have been. the scariest thing in the world sometimes is failure. and making the wrong decision is just that.
i don't want to fail. and i don't want swine flu.