"Enjoy eating that tag. Mommy's just going to write down some things..."
My last entry talks about a break-up and I don't even know who I might be bitching about. I could really give two shits. Because, let's face it, if that person had not broken up with me (and I'm assuming they broke up with me because 20-something Allison had far too many feelings), maybe I'd be somewhere else. I wouldn't be here on my couch in Chicago with creepy baby cartoons on the tv, and an infant rolling around at my feet.
And that thought depresses me. Because she is the universe. Sun. Moon. Stars. Atoms. Light beams. Dust. Monkeys. Apples. Whatever. She is my ev-er-eeeeee-THING. Yes, I sometimes get annoyed or frustrated. "Just give mommy two seconds to finish her coffee". What parent doesn't? Then she wakes up from a nap and whispers "secrets" to me (the gibberish of a crazy person) and she might as well swallow my heart whole.
Nineteen and a half years from now... I'll let her know these journal entries exist. "Go look at how silly your mom was in her 20's. So angsty and emotional. Go have a good laugh at your 20-something mother's expense!"
But seriously, why did I have to feel ALL the feels??
Also... "moviefruitball"? That was the best you could come up with? Ugh. The worst.
And that thought depresses me. Because she is the universe. Sun. Moon. Stars. Atoms. Light beams. Dust. Monkeys. Apples. Whatever. She is my ev-er-eeeeee-THING. Yes, I sometimes get annoyed or frustrated. "Just give mommy two seconds to finish her coffee". What parent doesn't? Then she wakes up from a nap and whispers "secrets" to me (the gibberish of a crazy person) and she might as well swallow my heart whole.
Nineteen and a half years from now... I'll let her know these journal entries exist. "Go look at how silly your mom was in her 20's. So angsty and emotional. Go have a good laugh at your 20-something mother's expense!"
But seriously, why did I have to feel ALL the feels??
Also... "moviefruitball"? That was the best you could come up with? Ugh. The worst.