It's been ages...
I can't believe I almost forgot all about my livejournal. I haven't written here in over a year! Wow... and the last entry was talking about dancing with gay men at CC Slaughters with Anna and Jamille. Has it really been a year? Wow. So much has changed. And yet I feel like I'm in the same exact place.
Why?
I've seemed to have gotten myself into this unfortuneate situation. It's like Jake all over again. I like someone. They seem to like me too. But then something happens. Something changes. I have doubts and I become a nervous wreck. Constantly questioning how they feel about me. What's wrong with me? Is it my imagination that things have changed between this person and I or is it my "womanly intuition" trying to warn me. Something is telling me that I'm another rebound, but I sit and make up excuses as to why I have these doubts. I know this is unhealthy, but I really don't know what to do.
Jake and this person are almost one in the same. When there are good times, they are GOOD. Amazing. But then there is a lack of affection or attention to another girl... and that's when I get nervous. Head spinning. Stabbing pain in the chest. Shortness of breath. Am I just paranoid? Am I being a stupid, silly girl? Ugh... I wish I knew.
I hate the fact that this feels like the second time I'm going through this.
I suppose all I can do right now is give him time and hope things get better.
Why?
I've seemed to have gotten myself into this unfortuneate situation. It's like Jake all over again. I like someone. They seem to like me too. But then something happens. Something changes. I have doubts and I become a nervous wreck. Constantly questioning how they feel about me. What's wrong with me? Is it my imagination that things have changed between this person and I or is it my "womanly intuition" trying to warn me. Something is telling me that I'm another rebound, but I sit and make up excuses as to why I have these doubts. I know this is unhealthy, but I really don't know what to do.
Jake and this person are almost one in the same. When there are good times, they are GOOD. Amazing. But then there is a lack of affection or attention to another girl... and that's when I get nervous. Head spinning. Stabbing pain in the chest. Shortness of breath. Am I just paranoid? Am I being a stupid, silly girl? Ugh... I wish I knew.
I hate the fact that this feels like the second time I'm going through this.
I suppose all I can do right now is give him time and hope things get better.