Good grief...
I just spent a good hour sitting at a computer in a small computer lab on the OSU campus reading a lot of my old entries. Things sure have changed... Good and bad.
I'd like to think that I'm okay at writing... I mean, when I went back and read all my entries, I felt a lot of the same emotions when I was writing them. Does that make sense? The stabbing pain of Nate and Bryan, the good times with Jamille, Janet, and Ellie, the all-nighters, everything. I miss my Monmouth friends so much. I'm at OSU now, and I have a few friends here and there, but not like the ones I had in M-Town. And I miss my roomies. Yeah, the end of the year of a bit of torture, but I missed having someone to come home to, someone always there - cooking, reading, making SOME sort of noise. It doesn't help that I live in the ghetto of Corvallis and far from campus.
Sad news... My computer crashed the other day. I lost EVERYTHING. The thing I'm going to miss the most- I had a journal on there for over three years. Everything I couldn't type here - I vented about in there. Everything - every thought, feeling, love, lost - whatever... lost forever.
Luckily, I wrote in here, so not all is lost. I laughed at myself when I saw how much I let myself be affected by Bryan and Nate. It was actually quite pathetic. Stupid boys. Speaking of stupid boys - I know one who isn't all that stupid... and his name is Jacob. And he's adorable. And he's mine. From his butt, to his smile, to his hair - all mine. I love him. He knows this. I'm such a stupid girl. ; ) And right now, I'm okay with that.
I MISS JANET AND JAMILLE SOOO MUCH IT HURTS.
Oh yeah - My birthday is in t-minus 9 days... boo ya!
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I'm losing intrest in writing in here. Time to walk to my truck in the dark - this shall be an adventure.
I'd like to think that I'm okay at writing... I mean, when I went back and read all my entries, I felt a lot of the same emotions when I was writing them. Does that make sense? The stabbing pain of Nate and Bryan, the good times with Jamille, Janet, and Ellie, the all-nighters, everything. I miss my Monmouth friends so much. I'm at OSU now, and I have a few friends here and there, but not like the ones I had in M-Town. And I miss my roomies. Yeah, the end of the year of a bit of torture, but I missed having someone to come home to, someone always there - cooking, reading, making SOME sort of noise. It doesn't help that I live in the ghetto of Corvallis and far from campus.
Sad news... My computer crashed the other day. I lost EVERYTHING. The thing I'm going to miss the most- I had a journal on there for over three years. Everything I couldn't type here - I vented about in there. Everything - every thought, feeling, love, lost - whatever... lost forever.
Luckily, I wrote in here, so not all is lost. I laughed at myself when I saw how much I let myself be affected by Bryan and Nate. It was actually quite pathetic. Stupid boys. Speaking of stupid boys - I know one who isn't all that stupid... and his name is Jacob. And he's adorable. And he's mine. From his butt, to his smile, to his hair - all mine. I love him. He knows this. I'm such a stupid girl. ; ) And right now, I'm okay with that.
I MISS JANET AND JAMILLE SOOO MUCH IT HURTS.
Oh yeah - My birthday is in t-minus 9 days... boo ya!
21
I'm losing intrest in writing in here. Time to walk to my truck in the dark - this shall be an adventure.