You were so young....
Recently I have, sadly, been questioning my faith. College has changed me in so many ways. I question everything about life and why I am here. And the news that I recieved this morning didn't help me at all.
There was someone I knew who lost a very close loved one and turned away from God. I was confused about why they did this. You would think that this person would need God more than ever. But now I know almost exactly how they feel. My nephew died in a car accident this morning. He was 10 - 11 in two weeks.
What has college done to me? I used to be such an optimistic person. My roommates keep telling me he's in Heaven and he's lucky he gets to be with Jesus so early on in life, but I don't see it that way. I question how God could take such an AMAZING little boy from so many people who loved him. He was bright and had this adorable smile. I'm so angry, hurt, and confused right now. And I hate the fact that I question God.
One thing I don't question - God did give us a chance to say good-bye. Last month, my mom's first husband got remarried. My brother was going to come up and bring his newborn baby girl. Plans changed and he brought Steven. They were supposed to leave Sunday, but plans changed again and their tickets had them leaving on Monday. So Sunday they came down to Monmouth and we had a huge family dinner. At the time I was embarrassed that my mom was taking so many pictures of everyone, but now I'm sooo happy. Now we can all remember the last day we had with him.
Steven Lewis Jackson - I love you.
"Goodbye! Goodbye Goodbye
November 10th, a cold dark night
You could feel that something wasn't right.
That night many hearts did cry
When we learned we had to say goodbye.
All embraced under one common song
the body is dead but life lives on.
All embraced under one common song
the body is dead but life lives on.
Good-bye Steven. Good-bye you friend.
You were so young. You were so young.
Good-bye Steven. Good-bye you friend.
You were so young.
The Cars lined the streets, as it was coming to an end.
The sun shined so brightly the day we buried our friend.
All embraced under one common song
the body is dead but life lives on.
All embraced under one common song
the body is dead but life lives on.
Good-bye Steven. Good-bye you friend.
You were so young. You were so young.
Good-bye Steven. Good-bye you friend.
You were so young. You were so young.
Losing in the fall, lost innocence came down
An 18 year old boy was buried in the ground.
A family's broken hearts, a friend's streaming tears.
The light lost in death, the living's growing fears.
Of Eternal darkness or is it spiritual light
To come with terms with death on the darkest night.
A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend,
a mother lost a son but Steven's soul will never end.
(You were so young)
(Good-bye)
A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend,
a mother lost a son but Steven's soul will never end."
Fitting that I already have this song....
There was someone I knew who lost a very close loved one and turned away from God. I was confused about why they did this. You would think that this person would need God more than ever. But now I know almost exactly how they feel. My nephew died in a car accident this morning. He was 10 - 11 in two weeks.
What has college done to me? I used to be such an optimistic person. My roommates keep telling me he's in Heaven and he's lucky he gets to be with Jesus so early on in life, but I don't see it that way. I question how God could take such an AMAZING little boy from so many people who loved him. He was bright and had this adorable smile. I'm so angry, hurt, and confused right now. And I hate the fact that I question God.
One thing I don't question - God did give us a chance to say good-bye. Last month, my mom's first husband got remarried. My brother was going to come up and bring his newborn baby girl. Plans changed and he brought Steven. They were supposed to leave Sunday, but plans changed again and their tickets had them leaving on Monday. So Sunday they came down to Monmouth and we had a huge family dinner. At the time I was embarrassed that my mom was taking so many pictures of everyone, but now I'm sooo happy. Now we can all remember the last day we had with him.
Steven Lewis Jackson - I love you.
"Goodbye! Goodbye Goodbye
November 10th, a cold dark night
You could feel that something wasn't right.
That night many hearts did cry
When we learned we had to say goodbye.
All embraced under one common song
the body is dead but life lives on.
All embraced under one common song
the body is dead but life lives on.
Good-bye Steven. Good-bye you friend.
You were so young. You were so young.
Good-bye Steven. Good-bye you friend.
You were so young.
The Cars lined the streets, as it was coming to an end.
The sun shined so brightly the day we buried our friend.
All embraced under one common song
the body is dead but life lives on.
All embraced under one common song
the body is dead but life lives on.
Good-bye Steven. Good-bye you friend.
You were so young. You were so young.
Good-bye Steven. Good-bye you friend.
You were so young. You were so young.
Losing in the fall, lost innocence came down
An 18 year old boy was buried in the ground.
A family's broken hearts, a friend's streaming tears.
The light lost in death, the living's growing fears.
Of Eternal darkness or is it spiritual light
To come with terms with death on the darkest night.
A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend,
a mother lost a son but Steven's soul will never end.
(You were so young)
(Good-bye)
A brother lost a brother, a friend lost a friend,
a mother lost a son but Steven's soul will never end."
Fitting that I already have this song....