i haven't hung out with anyone. if i did, i'd have nothing to say
today i made paper cranes. courtney is gonna hang one thousand of them from her ceiling. me too.
i blew bubbles in chocolate milk tonight.
i feel like i just swallowed a billion tablets of dramamine. and a hammer. i want to have one fantastic time of my life night. then i can be allowed to be okay. i'm okay right now but i'm anxious for that one time because everyone else is having it. i feel like i feel on new years. like the whole world (or atleast everyone in the eastern time zone) is partying. they're all kissing and screaming because the year we just had is down another avenue now. we have to look over our shoulders or creep up behind it to have a good view. sometimes there are actual documents or actual physical photographs of things you'd done. and always things you wish you'd done. but nothing i've really ever done stands out at that moment. i never feel small. i just feel unacheived, out of place, worried. i worry about everyone and everything and wonder if i am looking noticeably nervous. my new years resolution is to eat and feel 20% less and better than i eat and feel right now. i don't make sense.
do you feel like giving me a place to stay and a party to go to on new years? teach me how to do something unexpected. i need this.
the happiest birthday of any birthday on earth to my dearest andrea.
i blew bubbles in chocolate milk tonight.
i feel like i just swallowed a billion tablets of dramamine. and a hammer. i want to have one fantastic time of my life night. then i can be allowed to be okay. i'm okay right now but i'm anxious for that one time because everyone else is having it. i feel like i feel on new years. like the whole world (or atleast everyone in the eastern time zone) is partying. they're all kissing and screaming because the year we just had is down another avenue now. we have to look over our shoulders or creep up behind it to have a good view. sometimes there are actual documents or actual physical photographs of things you'd done. and always things you wish you'd done. but nothing i've really ever done stands out at that moment. i never feel small. i just feel unacheived, out of place, worried. i worry about everyone and everything and wonder if i am looking noticeably nervous. my new years resolution is to eat and feel 20% less and better than i eat and feel right now. i don't make sense.
do you feel like giving me a place to stay and a party to go to on new years? teach me how to do something unexpected. i need this.
the happiest birthday of any birthday on earth to my dearest andrea.