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I...
am my mothers favorite child, perhaps because i point out her own immaturities
am my stepfathers only son and theirfore draw a special scrutiny and appreciation
love my girlfriend
fuck up too much
think its ironic that those two are consecutive statments
had a long week
have 8 more long weeks to go
gained emense confidence when i hit highschool
lost an equal aomount of humility and have worked on it since i realized the pair
stole this format from tam
i have empathy for tam but its hidden under skeptisism
dont write in this journal enough
miss real soccer, real teams, real games, being the hero
am doing this to kill time because i fucked up things with jami for tonight, am tired because i had to wake up early, and wont get to go see milhouse perform because im babysitting my 11 year old sister
swear shes not part of the family
Dont think it makes a difference
Consider myself closer with the stepsister ive never lived with than the half sister i always have
have high hopes for sara...just in general.
think she should wear less eyeliner
think jami should wear absolutly no eyeliner
enjoy the early-fucking-november
am on my way to balding..i think
consider myself an exceptional goal keeper with less than exceptional luck
have no motivation, making me a little less than exceptional anything
cant take a goal kick...im working on it
have saved alot of money
dont know what to do with it
think maybe is houdl buy better grades
barely made a cumulative 3.0
am highly embarrassed by my waste of potential
know if i were jordan id be more embarassed
know jordan must have collected a life time of negative things to say about me
wonder why he doesnt say them
wonder why i have some extraordinary patience for him that other people dont seem to want
know it doesnt matter
am disapointed people like brian and jordan cant get along
am equally disapointed people like my parents cant get along
inherrited anxiety attacks from both my parents
made my mother cry last night
did it once cause i pissed her off and once cause i made her feel better
made my step dad say "im sorry"
was amazed
miss the brian+colin era
think this is an ironic entry
smile so much now
credit consistency for the smiling
mean 5 months of a girlfriend and a confined group of friends by consistency
hate mad tv
am watching chapelle show
just got off the phone with jami
only maintain a respect for pete because my mom loves him. Hes a good man and a poor father. He did give me 20 bucks last night though
feel like my life could fall apart in a single one of his mood swings
would loose jami, jordan, marc, school soccer situation, and everything else if we were forced to move cause of seperation.
support gay marriage?
know my hardships could mostly be precented and its myfault
am spoiled
wish marc didnt hang out in southbay so much now. Iths the group where you dont feel cool if you dont like the same music. I do like the same music its just not a healthy atmosphere. Too secretive
Know marc is one of the most extraordinary people ill ever meet and will regret not having a better relationship with him
regret not having a better relationship with my granparents who are some of my favorite people
am embarrassed when i realize i have typical near socialist views of a teen
feel myself floating towards "the middle" and away from "the left"
am a giver
dont care if my sister reads that
told my sister ive drank casualy
think its funny they bleep "cumming" in a maroon 5 song
like maroon 5
like whiney emo voices
have a problem with not telling the whole truth =/
attract conflict
wish i had a real dad
wish my dad weren't a recovering crack addict
wonder if my sisters really know the implications considering they have a dad
think pete needs to keep my dads name out of his mouth before i say something ill regret
feel like i should have reported him for laying his hand on my mom
to this day wonder how that would have fucked up my life and my family's
would break down and cry if i ever noticed that i treated someone i love like pete does
would do the same if i thoguht i was deteriorating the way my dad did
did the same when i missed brians graduation because i felt i owed him that
dont know what i want to do after school
doubt ill ever attain the pro soccer dreams ive toyed with since i was 5
wish no one had ever told me i was good at it
wish i had a single parent or gaurdian that wouldnt be diagnosed with some sort of serious chemical imbalance
wish i woulndt be...
miss talking to jen like i used to
resent robbie for monopolizing her time
think he should take a long break from dating
think jordan goes for the wrong girls
cant tell if marc goes for any girls recently
should call my dad
heard he got mugged
figure hes hopeless
dont need a 60 year old friend
am going to sleep
want a wet dream
That would be appropriate.
someone comment or some shit
am my mothers favorite child, perhaps because i point out her own immaturities
am my stepfathers only son and theirfore draw a special scrutiny and appreciation
love my girlfriend
fuck up too much
think its ironic that those two are consecutive statments
had a long week
have 8 more long weeks to go
gained emense confidence when i hit highschool
lost an equal aomount of humility and have worked on it since i realized the pair
stole this format from tam
i have empathy for tam but its hidden under skeptisism
dont write in this journal enough
miss real soccer, real teams, real games, being the hero
am doing this to kill time because i fucked up things with jami for tonight, am tired because i had to wake up early, and wont get to go see milhouse perform because im babysitting my 11 year old sister
swear shes not part of the family
Dont think it makes a difference
Consider myself closer with the stepsister ive never lived with than the half sister i always have
have high hopes for sara...just in general.
think she should wear less eyeliner
think jami should wear absolutly no eyeliner
enjoy the early-fucking-november
am on my way to balding..i think
consider myself an exceptional goal keeper with less than exceptional luck
have no motivation, making me a little less than exceptional anything
cant take a goal kick...im working on it
have saved alot of money
dont know what to do with it
think maybe is houdl buy better grades
barely made a cumulative 3.0
am highly embarrassed by my waste of potential
know if i were jordan id be more embarassed
know jordan must have collected a life time of negative things to say about me
wonder why he doesnt say them
wonder why i have some extraordinary patience for him that other people dont seem to want
know it doesnt matter
am disapointed people like brian and jordan cant get along
am equally disapointed people like my parents cant get along
inherrited anxiety attacks from both my parents
made my mother cry last night
did it once cause i pissed her off and once cause i made her feel better
made my step dad say "im sorry"
was amazed
miss the brian+colin era
think this is an ironic entry
smile so much now
credit consistency for the smiling
mean 5 months of a girlfriend and a confined group of friends by consistency
hate mad tv
am watching chapelle show
just got off the phone with jami
only maintain a respect for pete because my mom loves him. Hes a good man and a poor father. He did give me 20 bucks last night though
feel like my life could fall apart in a single one of his mood swings
would loose jami, jordan, marc, school soccer situation, and everything else if we were forced to move cause of seperation.
support gay marriage?
know my hardships could mostly be precented and its myfault
am spoiled
wish marc didnt hang out in southbay so much now. Iths the group where you dont feel cool if you dont like the same music. I do like the same music its just not a healthy atmosphere. Too secretive
Know marc is one of the most extraordinary people ill ever meet and will regret not having a better relationship with him
regret not having a better relationship with my granparents who are some of my favorite people
am embarrassed when i realize i have typical near socialist views of a teen
feel myself floating towards "the middle" and away from "the left"
am a giver
dont care if my sister reads that
told my sister ive drank casualy
think its funny they bleep "cumming" in a maroon 5 song
like maroon 5
like whiney emo voices
have a problem with not telling the whole truth =/
attract conflict
wish i had a real dad
wish my dad weren't a recovering crack addict
wonder if my sisters really know the implications considering they have a dad
think pete needs to keep my dads name out of his mouth before i say something ill regret
feel like i should have reported him for laying his hand on my mom
to this day wonder how that would have fucked up my life and my family's
would break down and cry if i ever noticed that i treated someone i love like pete does
would do the same if i thoguht i was deteriorating the way my dad did
did the same when i missed brians graduation because i felt i owed him that
dont know what i want to do after school
doubt ill ever attain the pro soccer dreams ive toyed with since i was 5
wish no one had ever told me i was good at it
wish i had a single parent or gaurdian that wouldnt be diagnosed with some sort of serious chemical imbalance
wish i woulndt be...
miss talking to jen like i used to
resent robbie for monopolizing her time
think he should take a long break from dating
think jordan goes for the wrong girls
cant tell if marc goes for any girls recently
should call my dad
heard he got mugged
figure hes hopeless
dont need a 60 year old friend
am going to sleep
want a wet dream
That would be appropriate.
someone comment or some shit