All in all, I guess it's for the better if you just can't feel a fucking thing
Why does he have to do this to me? Every time I've finally gotten past him and I'm finally feeling good for a change. He has to come back and remind me of everything I've lost, and then push me while I'm down by reminding me that we will never be again.
Alex starting talking to me on aim again. I was so hesitant. I wanted to talk. I wanted to tell him everything again. But he'll hurt me again. He always does. I think he needs to be reminded that he has the power to make someone else suffer. What else could it be?
I was done with him. I was going through therapy that was helping me to move on. I was beginning to be complete again. Why does he choose NOW to talk to me again. To tell me he misses me. Why fucking now?
And also why is he mad at me constantly? He says he misses me, but then gets mad because I mentioned that I'm also hanging out with Will when I'm up in the cities this weekend. Will and I are friends. Will did not tell me that we can't be friends anymore. Will didn't hurt me in a way I had never been hurt. Sure, we didn't work out romantically, but Will realized that we could be friends anyway. He didn't throw me on my ass without so much as a goodbye. I'm not picking Will over him either. I'm just hanging out with him, too. I will not be sorry for that. I will not because someone actually wants to be my friend. Alex has no right to expect me to do that.
Damn, I'm way stronger than I used to be. Yet still, not a whole lot happier. Well, not happier about stupid situations. In life I'm pretty happy. You can't take that from me, Alex. I won't let you.
Alex starting talking to me on aim again. I was so hesitant. I wanted to talk. I wanted to tell him everything again. But he'll hurt me again. He always does. I think he needs to be reminded that he has the power to make someone else suffer. What else could it be?
I was done with him. I was going through therapy that was helping me to move on. I was beginning to be complete again. Why does he choose NOW to talk to me again. To tell me he misses me. Why fucking now?
And also why is he mad at me constantly? He says he misses me, but then gets mad because I mentioned that I'm also hanging out with Will when I'm up in the cities this weekend. Will and I are friends. Will did not tell me that we can't be friends anymore. Will didn't hurt me in a way I had never been hurt. Sure, we didn't work out romantically, but Will realized that we could be friends anyway. He didn't throw me on my ass without so much as a goodbye. I'm not picking Will over him either. I'm just hanging out with him, too. I will not be sorry for that. I will not because someone actually wants to be my friend. Alex has no right to expect me to do that.
Damn, I'm way stronger than I used to be. Yet still, not a whole lot happier. Well, not happier about stupid situations. In life I'm pretty happy. You can't take that from me, Alex. I won't let you.