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the worst thing about taking medication is remembering to take it.
i'm realizing now that it is 3pm and i was supposed to have taken two 1/2 pills already and i haven't. i know i'll be asleep early, and if i take a whole pill now i'll have to push my last dose back. so do i take a whole one now, or half, or just cut my entire daily dose in half? i can never tell. i'm the worst for remembering to do this and i can't take a whole one during the day because they make me dizzy. i guess these meds (buspar) have been working to control my anxiety? not as well as the celexa did, but side affects from that were just too much.
i've been in philly for about a week now and mostly i am still anxious and particular all the time, though i can't tell if that's because, as an anxious introvert, i need time and space to myself and a place to escape but i got kicked out of the guest room when the person with cat allergies came to stay in a house with three cats and we've been a group of seven for days now. it's funny how invisible illness gave way to a visible one, though i don't think my anxiety is life-threatening and i guess cat allergies can be? but i still feel resentful that somehow my intense anxiety isn't being recognized when having my own room was one of the reasons i was able to come visit, knew i would be okay to stay here so long. suddenly having three days left with one of my best friends who i love and might not see again for a year seems like a daunting task
edit: but also, lou is taking like every precaution to ensure i feel comfortable and putting up with my grumpyness. and i am really, really happy to have a person in my life who accepts and understand my needs like she does. there's that too, and i'm never not happy about our friendship.
i'm realizing now that it is 3pm and i was supposed to have taken two 1/2 pills already and i haven't. i know i'll be asleep early, and if i take a whole pill now i'll have to push my last dose back. so do i take a whole one now, or half, or just cut my entire daily dose in half? i can never tell. i'm the worst for remembering to do this and i can't take a whole one during the day because they make me dizzy. i guess these meds (buspar) have been working to control my anxiety? not as well as the celexa did, but side affects from that were just too much.
i've been in philly for about a week now and mostly i am still anxious and particular all the time, though i can't tell if that's because, as an anxious introvert, i need time and space to myself and a place to escape but i got kicked out of the guest room when the person with cat allergies came to stay in a house with three cats and we've been a group of seven for days now. it's funny how invisible illness gave way to a visible one, though i don't think my anxiety is life-threatening and i guess cat allergies can be? but i still feel resentful that somehow my intense anxiety isn't being recognized when having my own room was one of the reasons i was able to come visit, knew i would be okay to stay here so long. suddenly having three days left with one of my best friends who i love and might not see again for a year seems like a daunting task
edit: but also, lou is taking like every precaution to ensure i feel comfortable and putting up with my grumpyness. and i am really, really happy to have a person in my life who accepts and understand my needs like she does. there's that too, and i'm never not happy about our friendship.