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Yeah....long hours at the computer.....not having anyone to talk to or anything to do is something I've always dreamed of. Let me tell you, there is soo much i want to do...I've been trying to go see some bands at ace's basement or something....but i dont want to spend my mula...and sometimes i miss the shows of the bands i want to see....cause i dont want to go to a show of bands i dont really care about hearing. but now i guess ill go to the movies....i dont want to spend the money...but i want to see Star Wars real bad cause i never got to go when it came out. but this can be the only time. Wow. Then all i have left to do with out spending any money is play my drums....listen to music....and uhhh...sit...then sit some more b/c i cant talk to anyone b/c everyone is out doing something and most are out of town at the beaches and stuff. My life kinda sucks. My boyfriend is out doing things with his friends with out calling me and ill end up not talking to him for a day or so. It hurts. I mean it really hurts.Im thinking about just forgetting about him and moving on...i can do that...i really can but its that when i say i hurts that he doesnt call me b/c it makes me feel sort of...unimportant which i am to everyone but i was hoping not for him. hes like well im sorry i dont mean to hurt you. SHould beleive that? Im so confused and I dont know what to do. But anyways....its not easy and everytime my life starts to look up....its always smashed into pieces for me to put back together again...which takes long hours you see....
im done
im done