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Have you ever had that feeling that you just hate everyone? Im getting to the point where happiness is hard to find. The things that i have been doing wrong is that I have been skipping school. I usually only skip 4th block....but that has only been for the past few days and i never do. Today I left school right after 2nd period. I dont know what i was thinking i guess i was afraid that i was missing something and i had skip out so that i could finnish what i didnt do. But it sucks because now the school knows and my mom is pissed and calling me out....calling me all sorts of names and acusing me of being sneaky and dishonest. But that wasnt even the case....I guess you'd have to be me to understand how i feel. Everything has been going wrong and Im getting scared. I dont have it that bad but im still afraid. I havent been talking to anyone and mainly ive just been avoiding the world....I have started this new job and it is very very stressful....thats just another thing to add going to school everyday. The days untill school gets out are going by slower and slower everyday....its 3 weeks untill we get out and im feeling like i cant make it. I need something to get my mind off of everything...I need something to help me feel like everythings going to be ok. Once i have my confidence back i think might be able to get through everything and keep my stright A's up. Im scared they might just slip away from me, from the way things are going they just might. My boyfriend is all i have now to keep my balance up....hes absolutly wonderful, and im glad hes there to sort of catch me if i fall. But even though hes there to catch me...i keep falling.....