fic: Broken memory (2/5 or 2/6)
It was lovely sunny day. Kazuya had his day off, so he went for a walk with his pupils. He had a head full of minds, wondered what had he do for lunch, since his best friend didn’t do cooking things property. His friend promised came to him after work, so he had a whole day for himself. Then suddenly he heard someone’s voice, which was calling him, and he turned around. He felt that he was smiling…
~.~
Kazuya woke up and tried to catch his breath. This was just a dream. Incredible and reality dream, but dream. He felt that he was crying. His intuition told him that dream wasn’t a dream at all. It had a place in his past, but he didn’t remember that. That was frustrating. He hadn’t seen that person, whose was calling him. He wanted to know who was that. It was a man, and he knew that, because of the voice. This voice was a melody in his soul and he heard it before.
But there was no answer coming to his mind. There was nothing. The black hole. He didn’t know what to do. He knew one thing. Definitely must find out. He promised himself that he found it. He definitely found that person.
A small smile came on his face and he came to sleep again.
~.~
Tatsuya entered to Kazuya’s apartment with a bad feeling. He knew that they’re going to the fatal disaster. It was obvious that finally Kazuya found out and then they’ll die. The younger one was horrible when he was mad at someone. Ueda took a deep breath and looked at the rooms. Nothing changed after his previous visit. Jin's spirit was there. In every single detail. He once again cursed Koki's stupid idea, and once again asked himself why he agreed to do this.
He wasn’t the one, who agreed to it. Everybody do that. They agreed to help with it. Everyone except Jin’s best friend - Yamashita, who was on his holidays without any phone and computer, so was out of reach. But that wasn’t a problem. The KAT-TUN’s leader was sure that Yamapi would help them, when he came back.
The real problem was the internet. There was so many pictures and stories about the relationship between Kazuya and Jin, and they couldn’t forbid Kame used the computer, so they lie was a matter of time.
Ueda was truly believed that Kazuya will be mad at them, when that time came, but he didn’t care about this. He just wanted to make Kame happy. Wanted him to not be in pain. He just cared about younger one.
‘Sorry Jin’ whispered when he was packing Akanishi’s stuff to the box. ‘Sorry my friend, I just can’t allow Kazuya to cry one more time because of you’ justified himself.
Tatsuya knew that Jin and Kame relation was complicated. They’re loved and hated each other at the same time. They’re cared about each other, but they’re also hurt each other. He knew that, this fatal day, they’re fought too.
~.~
‘He did not!’ Maru once again yelled on Akanishi. ‘He had never betrayed you. It was you, who started it!’
‘So he did that in revenge, right?! Revenge or not… he betrayed me!’
‘He did not!’
‘Yes he did! I’m not that fucking idiot to believe you!’ Jin punched the wall next to Maru's head.
‘No, you’re that fucking idiot!’ Yuichi was out of the control. He shook his head with the hope, that anger will be smaller, but that wasn’t true. He was angry for his friend. Jin drove him crazy once again. He didn’t know that Akanishi is that idiot. He hit his friends stomach to reduce his anger, then he yelled at Jin. ‘He was out with his cousin!’
‘With cousin?’ Jin blinked, still grimacing with pain.
‘Yes idiot. You knew that. He told you about it yesterday!’
‘He do?’
‘Yes! What the hell is wrong with you, Akanishi?!’
‘I didn’t remember that!’
‘Because you’re deadly drunken’ Maru took a deep breath and closed his eyes. He didn’t want to hurt his friend again. ‘Now, go and apologize to him’ said with calm voice.
‘I’ve never apologize to anybody, even Kazuya’
‘You’re such an idiot! Go out of my eyes, ‘cause I swear that I’m gonna killed you!’ Maru again was out of control. His friend drove him crazy. He didn’t know why Jin was such an idiot.
~.~
That was the last time he hears Akanishi. He was standing outside with Nishikido. They’re had a conversation, when loud voices of that two came to they’re ears. They didn’t do this particularly. It just happened. And then he saw Jin, who was going to his car, when Kame was waiting for him. And half an hour later Akanishi was dead.
‘You’re okay?’ Ryo's voice came to him, so he force himself to smile.
‘Yeah, I was just thinking about Jin’ whispered and then he felt that Ryo hugged him tight.
‘We all missed him’
‘I know… Ryo? What are we doing now? Kazuya must know about everything. He must…’ Tatsuya looked at his friend trying to find out. He wanted found justified for his actions.
‘He will Tatsu, he will… but now that is better for him’ Nishikido smiled to him and stroked his hairs. ‘I’m sure that he thanks us one day.’
‘Yeah, sure, after he killed us’ Ueda laugh with his own joke, but he knew that Kazuya definitely will murder them.
~.~
Kazuya looked out the window, when HE entered and stand right behind him. HE hugged him a little and kissed his ear. Kame could felt HIS breath on his ear. He could feel HIS soft lips on his ear.
‘What are you thinking about?’ his deep, but soft voice was melody of his soul. He loved his voice and skin. He loved this man. He wants to talk about it, but he didn’t have the courage.
‘About us’ answered carefully.
‘And what do you think about us?’ asked him and next kisses placed on his ear and neck. Kazuya bite his lips a little. He like his actions. They’re coming him pleasure.
‘We’re like fire and water…’
‘But we suit to each other. I can’t live without you, Kazu-chan.’
~.~
Kazuya again woke up with that strange feeling in his stomach. He bites his lips for a while, and closed his eyes. He wanted back to this dream. He didn’t want to wake up, cursed himself for that. He wanted to listen this voice again, again and again. He knew that was true. He loved this person, but hell… why he didn’t see him? Why he can’t see him in his dreams? And why he’d never came to visit him in hospital? He didn’t know. Something must happen, but his black hole didn’t became smaller at all and nobody wanted to help him.
Two weeks has passed since he woke up, and his memories didn’t back at all. He just had that strange dreams. Every night they’re came, but he wasn’t afraid. He like them. They’re full of happiness and funny actions.
‘I’m gonna crazy’ Kame said to himself and massaged temples. This feeling in his stomach was something he must find out. Just for himself, ‘cause it bother him too much.
~.~
Koki entered to Kazuya’s room with a big smile on his face.
‘I have a great news for you’ smiled to his friend widely. ‘You’re gonna home today’ yelled with exciting and stroked Kame’s hair.
‘Finally!’ younger one jumped on his bed with a big smile. Finally the day has come. He hugged Koki tight. ‘I’m gonna home!’ I left that fucking hospital!’ he screamed with an happy expression on his face. He kissed Koki passionately which was incredible ridiculous, but he didn’t care. He was just happy. ‘Home sweet home!’
~.~
Kazuya woke up and tried to catch his breath. This was just a dream. Incredible and reality dream, but dream. He felt that he was crying. His intuition told him that dream wasn’t a dream at all. It had a place in his past, but he didn’t remember that. That was frustrating. He hadn’t seen that person, whose was calling him. He wanted to know who was that. It was a man, and he knew that, because of the voice. This voice was a melody in his soul and he heard it before.
But there was no answer coming to his mind. There was nothing. The black hole. He didn’t know what to do. He knew one thing. Definitely must find out. He promised himself that he found it. He definitely found that person.
A small smile came on his face and he came to sleep again.
~.~
Tatsuya entered to Kazuya’s apartment with a bad feeling. He knew that they’re going to the fatal disaster. It was obvious that finally Kazuya found out and then they’ll die. The younger one was horrible when he was mad at someone. Ueda took a deep breath and looked at the rooms. Nothing changed after his previous visit. Jin's spirit was there. In every single detail. He once again cursed Koki's stupid idea, and once again asked himself why he agreed to do this.
He wasn’t the one, who agreed to it. Everybody do that. They agreed to help with it. Everyone except Jin’s best friend - Yamashita, who was on his holidays without any phone and computer, so was out of reach. But that wasn’t a problem. The KAT-TUN’s leader was sure that Yamapi would help them, when he came back.
The real problem was the internet. There was so many pictures and stories about the relationship between Kazuya and Jin, and they couldn’t forbid Kame used the computer, so they lie was a matter of time.
Ueda was truly believed that Kazuya will be mad at them, when that time came, but he didn’t care about this. He just wanted to make Kame happy. Wanted him to not be in pain. He just cared about younger one.
‘Sorry Jin’ whispered when he was packing Akanishi’s stuff to the box. ‘Sorry my friend, I just can’t allow Kazuya to cry one more time because of you’ justified himself.
Tatsuya knew that Jin and Kame relation was complicated. They’re loved and hated each other at the same time. They’re cared about each other, but they’re also hurt each other. He knew that, this fatal day, they’re fought too.
~.~
‘He did not!’ Maru once again yelled on Akanishi. ‘He had never betrayed you. It was you, who started it!’
‘So he did that in revenge, right?! Revenge or not… he betrayed me!’
‘He did not!’
‘Yes he did! I’m not that fucking idiot to believe you!’ Jin punched the wall next to Maru's head.
‘No, you’re that fucking idiot!’ Yuichi was out of the control. He shook his head with the hope, that anger will be smaller, but that wasn’t true. He was angry for his friend. Jin drove him crazy once again. He didn’t know that Akanishi is that idiot. He hit his friends stomach to reduce his anger, then he yelled at Jin. ‘He was out with his cousin!’
‘With cousin?’ Jin blinked, still grimacing with pain.
‘Yes idiot. You knew that. He told you about it yesterday!’
‘He do?’
‘Yes! What the hell is wrong with you, Akanishi?!’
‘I didn’t remember that!’
‘Because you’re deadly drunken’ Maru took a deep breath and closed his eyes. He didn’t want to hurt his friend again. ‘Now, go and apologize to him’ said with calm voice.
‘I’ve never apologize to anybody, even Kazuya’
‘You’re such an idiot! Go out of my eyes, ‘cause I swear that I’m gonna killed you!’ Maru again was out of control. His friend drove him crazy. He didn’t know why Jin was such an idiot.
~.~
That was the last time he hears Akanishi. He was standing outside with Nishikido. They’re had a conversation, when loud voices of that two came to they’re ears. They didn’t do this particularly. It just happened. And then he saw Jin, who was going to his car, when Kame was waiting for him. And half an hour later Akanishi was dead.
‘You’re okay?’ Ryo's voice came to him, so he force himself to smile.
‘Yeah, I was just thinking about Jin’ whispered and then he felt that Ryo hugged him tight.
‘We all missed him’
‘I know… Ryo? What are we doing now? Kazuya must know about everything. He must…’ Tatsuya looked at his friend trying to find out. He wanted found justified for his actions.
‘He will Tatsu, he will… but now that is better for him’ Nishikido smiled to him and stroked his hairs. ‘I’m sure that he thanks us one day.’
‘Yeah, sure, after he killed us’ Ueda laugh with his own joke, but he knew that Kazuya definitely will murder them.
~.~
Kazuya looked out the window, when HE entered and stand right behind him. HE hugged him a little and kissed his ear. Kame could felt HIS breath on his ear. He could feel HIS soft lips on his ear.
‘What are you thinking about?’ his deep, but soft voice was melody of his soul. He loved his voice and skin. He loved this man. He wants to talk about it, but he didn’t have the courage.
‘About us’ answered carefully.
‘And what do you think about us?’ asked him and next kisses placed on his ear and neck. Kazuya bite his lips a little. He like his actions. They’re coming him pleasure.
‘We’re like fire and water…’
‘But we suit to each other. I can’t live without you, Kazu-chan.’
~.~
Kazuya again woke up with that strange feeling in his stomach. He bites his lips for a while, and closed his eyes. He wanted back to this dream. He didn’t want to wake up, cursed himself for that. He wanted to listen this voice again, again and again. He knew that was true. He loved this person, but hell… why he didn’t see him? Why he can’t see him in his dreams? And why he’d never came to visit him in hospital? He didn’t know. Something must happen, but his black hole didn’t became smaller at all and nobody wanted to help him.
Two weeks has passed since he woke up, and his memories didn’t back at all. He just had that strange dreams. Every night they’re came, but he wasn’t afraid. He like them. They’re full of happiness and funny actions.
‘I’m gonna crazy’ Kame said to himself and massaged temples. This feeling in his stomach was something he must find out. Just for himself, ‘cause it bother him too much.
~.~
Koki entered to Kazuya’s room with a big smile on his face.
‘I have a great news for you’ smiled to his friend widely. ‘You’re gonna home today’ yelled with exciting and stroked Kame’s hair.
‘Finally!’ younger one jumped on his bed with a big smile. Finally the day has come. He hugged Koki tight. ‘I’m gonna home!’ I left that fucking hospital!’ he screamed with an happy expression on his face. He kissed Koki passionately which was incredible ridiculous, but he didn’t care. He was just happy. ‘Home sweet home!’