Long Time No Update
so...started partying pretty much 24/7
hardly any breaks..
Went to the gym..because I'm back in training again..lol
have to be able to do a fucking push up..
GRR>>>!!!!
so my body hurts..
I didn't sleep very well due to the caffee pills I took this morning
there is a lot I'd like to say...
but if I say it..
this entry would be come private..
because I don't want my friends knowing how I feel about someone..
*hits self in head*
I wanted so badly to kiss him..
and I think...he would of let me..
but I didn't..
*sigh*..
oh well...I should bother getting involved with anyone anyways..
expecially since..I'm going to be leaving...
because..like if something happened..it'd make it harder to leave..
and I know he wouldn't wait for me..
seriously, what guy would wait?
I'm stupid really..
this is stupid to be thinking of..nothing is gonna happen..
and my stupid ass fantacies should stay in my head
where they belong..
guys are stupid! they just cause problems..
and distract me from my goals in life..
or finding my goals in life.
yes, I want to be held and loved, and hugged..
and snuggled..but...there will be time for that..
after I see the world.
After I know who I am on my own..
How I handel responsibilty that I can't back out of..
I need to know who I am alone, before I can be with someone..
even if I do..want this person..really bad...
AND NOT FUCKING SEXUALLY FOR YOU GOD DAMN PERVERTS!
*sigh*...
and I will always love you...
all of you..
and I'm not running away from ANYONE!
OR ANYTHING!
I need to see the world, I need to leave my backyard..
I need to push myself, to learn my capabilities..
I need to learn that loving myself is enough to make me happy..
I don't need a man for that...
I don't need anything but me..
but this one guy, would be nice to have beside me..
but whatever...I highly doubt that's gonna happen..
and I won't change who I am..to get with him..
-Yummie Gummie Bear (out!)
hardly any breaks..
Went to the gym..because I'm back in training again..lol
have to be able to do a fucking push up..
GRR>>>!!!!
so my body hurts..
I didn't sleep very well due to the caffee pills I took this morning
there is a lot I'd like to say...
but if I say it..
this entry would be come private..
because I don't want my friends knowing how I feel about someone..
*hits self in head*
I wanted so badly to kiss him..
and I think...he would of let me..
but I didn't..
*sigh*..
oh well...I should bother getting involved with anyone anyways..
expecially since..I'm going to be leaving...
because..like if something happened..it'd make it harder to leave..
and I know he wouldn't wait for me..
seriously, what guy would wait?
I'm stupid really..
this is stupid to be thinking of..nothing is gonna happen..
and my stupid ass fantacies should stay in my head
where they belong..
guys are stupid! they just cause problems..
and distract me from my goals in life..
or finding my goals in life.
yes, I want to be held and loved, and hugged..
and snuggled..but...there will be time for that..
after I see the world.
After I know who I am on my own..
How I handel responsibilty that I can't back out of..
I need to know who I am alone, before I can be with someone..
even if I do..want this person..really bad...
AND NOT FUCKING SEXUALLY FOR YOU GOD DAMN PERVERTS!
*sigh*...
and I will always love you...
all of you..
and I'm not running away from ANYONE!
OR ANYTHING!
I need to see the world, I need to leave my backyard..
I need to push myself, to learn my capabilities..
I need to learn that loving myself is enough to make me happy..
I don't need a man for that...
I don't need anything but me..
but this one guy, would be nice to have beside me..
but whatever...I highly doubt that's gonna happen..
and I won't change who I am..to get with him..
-Yummie Gummie Bear (out!)