we were okay but why can't you just love me and never leave me
i got back on the buffy train. i finished season six and now im skimming through four. she sure gained a lot of power within that two years. it's amazing how it's like chocolate or ice cream when youre feeling bad. you just get lost in a world of other people's problems that always get worked out in an hour.
i went to the dance on friday. apparently i openly shared the man whom i'm intellectually attracted to. it's really nothing more. and i danced with people i dont usually care for. they stepped on my feet too. i felt up some muscles. jenna and i had a fun little party. what's the point of faking being drunk though? just get drunk and then actually be drunk for real.
we saw hitch and went to dinner. it was so quaint.
then ryan picked me up and got more faded.
we've been fighting more. sometimes i'll sleep on the couch. he'll just get mad for petty things and since he's so stubborn, he'll hold a grudge all night. i'd rather sleep alone then be taunted with a cuddly bunny who won't cuddle. poo. =(
and this whole college decision is a major bum out. i should have been so happy. i was happy. i'm glad i got in. but it's not as easy as just accepting my acceptance and going there. i have a boyfriend. i have my longest relationship. someone about whom i care a great deal. i don't want to jeopardize a good thing nor do i want to jeopardize by strength and intelligence. everytime i think about it i get all sad. i don't know what to do.
hope everyone had a good ditch day.
it wasn't so bad.
madeleine
i went to the dance on friday. apparently i openly shared the man whom i'm intellectually attracted to. it's really nothing more. and i danced with people i dont usually care for. they stepped on my feet too. i felt up some muscles. jenna and i had a fun little party. what's the point of faking being drunk though? just get drunk and then actually be drunk for real.
we saw hitch and went to dinner. it was so quaint.
then ryan picked me up and got more faded.
we've been fighting more. sometimes i'll sleep on the couch. he'll just get mad for petty things and since he's so stubborn, he'll hold a grudge all night. i'd rather sleep alone then be taunted with a cuddly bunny who won't cuddle. poo. =(
and this whole college decision is a major bum out. i should have been so happy. i was happy. i'm glad i got in. but it's not as easy as just accepting my acceptance and going there. i have a boyfriend. i have my longest relationship. someone about whom i care a great deal. i don't want to jeopardize a good thing nor do i want to jeopardize by strength and intelligence. everytime i think about it i get all sad. i don't know what to do.
hope everyone had a good ditch day.
it wasn't so bad.
madeleine