Nov 20, 2005 16:36
Last night was very interesting. The whole Heaven and A.J. thing. Yeah think how crazy that all was and then picture yourself being the third wheel. That's how I felt. Thank Tayler for watching the Chocolate Show with me.
Anyway. Too top it all off. I feel really weird getting ready to say this. But I don't know what I feel for him right now. I know that I broke up with him, and then went back out with him. But last night was just like the toppper on my cake. I mean yeah I like to hang out with him. But there is no way that I would ever break 3 laws to see him. And yes, that is what he did. I mean yeah seeing you is great. And I love to hang out with you and just talk but I really think that me and you being friends right now would be good. I know that most of you think I am stupid or whatever you want to call it. But what Cody did last night and the fact that he didnt listen to me when I told him it wasnt a good idea.. it just pushes my buttons. I need room right now. My weekend has not been a good one and I am not going to say that is the reason I am doing this right now.. but that plays a part in it. I just want my space and I think that you want and need space right now too. Last night just put that all in my sight and this is what I think needs to be done. I know you will be heart broken and all that and sad. But don't I am your friend and you know that. And you know whenever you need anything you can count on me and I will be there. But right now... me and you should be single. And you can then go and do whatever it is you want to do, and I wont have to worry, and you wont have to worry about what I think...
There is it. I am so truely sorry. But last night really made me see it all so clearly. Thanks for everything Cody. Friends, ok? Well I know this is harsh but I need my space and so do you.. sorry again. I need and want this now.
Friend Forever And Always,
Miss. Trish Brown