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I just called him. He said he felt as if he was ruining his future if he came back here. Now, I ask a direct question to the very few who actually read through what I write occassionally. How far would you go for the person you love? And I mean, really love, intensly, where you could easily see a happy future together.
For me, I would go to any lengths. I would have moved to Australia. I would have moved anywhere in the universe. I would steal. I might even ignore the fact that I don't have murder in my heart.
I know many people are probably thinking its been less than three months, if you see a future, than waiting a bit longer won't mean anything. But you see, the thing is, I am still only so young, and that is such a long time for me. My 20th birthday will be coming up, and nothing would be worse than spending it here alone. Also, I do not trust that if I let it wait longer, that he would come back. If I had one wish, just one wish....I would wish I could go back to before he left, and not let him go. Or at least made sure we had a proper goodbye. If there is anyway I could do that, I would.
I have never felt pain like this before.
For me, I would go to any lengths. I would have moved to Australia. I would have moved anywhere in the universe. I would steal. I might even ignore the fact that I don't have murder in my heart.
I know many people are probably thinking its been less than three months, if you see a future, than waiting a bit longer won't mean anything. But you see, the thing is, I am still only so young, and that is such a long time for me. My 20th birthday will be coming up, and nothing would be worse than spending it here alone. Also, I do not trust that if I let it wait longer, that he would come back. If I had one wish, just one wish....I would wish I could go back to before he left, and not let him go. Or at least made sure we had a proper goodbye. If there is anyway I could do that, I would.
I have never felt pain like this before.