My Hands Raised High
last night was great and awful all in about 5 hours. first, me and jared went to eric from xDeathstarx's house so he could re-do Jared's tattoo on his back. We were there for about 3 hours, we watched Fight Club while he was getting his tat done. then as they were working, a lot of the kids from the stairs started coming to the house do to the lame curfew at market night. By the end of the night; Josh and i think one of hte other guitarists from xDeathstarx came over, and Derek from Bleeding Through were all hanging out. After hearing Josh, Matt, and Derek talk about how great the Dodgers were in 88 (ahahah, they really were never better since then), me and jared were leaving. as we were getting into the truck, i look over and beejay is standing next to this truck. so of course, we talked to him for a little while and made plans to do something with him today. well, after that, we went and ate then went to colins. we ended up going to Cope Middle School and watch Colin throw a damn tv set off the library (i dont know, lol). after that, they took me home. well, i got online to read some really depressing stuff. and it just reminded me why im such a loser and im alone. i hate chain letters. they never work out. if this one does, i should be hearing "the shock of my life" between 12 and 4 today. well, ill believe it when i see it. because i seriously doubt the love of my life will realize they love me too. but i guess you have to be optimistic.....im losing hope on optimism.