who reads this. . .
i havnt been online in a while and i really dont know what to say on here. . im tryin to work things out wit tristan and i dont want to lose him. it would hurt so baf to lose him. it hurts enough that i see him wit gwen and hes not wit me. like he kisses her and hugs her but he dont wit me. u really need to talk to him because its startin to really get to me but im not sure what to say to him. like im gonna be like this is really gettin to me but i want to know whats up wit us. i cant say i love you to him for a while. but when i say it and hear it back it makes me feel safe. i dont know why but its does. i dont like to get hugs alot sometimes but i like it when i hug tree and gwen to. like gwen shes been moody but i think its that fact that we all dont feel good. but when i go back there im gonna get a hug from her. like i love her like a sister and yea if i good date her i would but i dont like stuff like that. i tried but i guess i couldnt do it. i dont want to lose them at all but half the time i dont know what to do. if anyone that reads this can help me out that would be great. its killin me inside. . .