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I left three out of six of the equally-weighted questions on my 80-minute 6550 test blank or nearly totally blank. I did not know, remember, or have any idea how to do them. Even on the questions where I had some idea, I was not sure and barely remembered.
I feel awful and I don't really know what to do. Throw up or something. I can't drop the course without going through a special procedure, and I don't know if I could drop it even then because it might push me below the minimum class hours. I didn't study enough, I have done a lot of wrong and stupid things, and it's only right that I get some payback. This week may bleed through to affect how I feel doing the interview Monday, which may contribute to me getting turned down (even if they were going to be the first company to give me an offer since NI, which I believe is unlikely). And even if I got an offer, this course and others may result in me not graduating in time, and losing the offer, plus I would have more fees to pay, another semester here, probably no GTA position, and so forth.
On a random note, a girl I used to believe I loved, for years, is getting married (19 years old) Saturday. I am glad to avoid the wedding, even though I don't think I feel anything for her at all anymore...I don't even know if I really loved her or whatever.
Random thoughts. I type but I don't really feel anything.
I want a friend. Maybe a friend with a baby hamster. T_T
I feel awful and I don't really know what to do. Throw up or something. I can't drop the course without going through a special procedure, and I don't know if I could drop it even then because it might push me below the minimum class hours. I didn't study enough, I have done a lot of wrong and stupid things, and it's only right that I get some payback. This week may bleed through to affect how I feel doing the interview Monday, which may contribute to me getting turned down (even if they were going to be the first company to give me an offer since NI, which I believe is unlikely). And even if I got an offer, this course and others may result in me not graduating in time, and losing the offer, plus I would have more fees to pay, another semester here, probably no GTA position, and so forth.
On a random note, a girl I used to believe I loved, for years, is getting married (19 years old) Saturday. I am glad to avoid the wedding, even though I don't think I feel anything for her at all anymore...I don't even know if I really loved her or whatever.
Random thoughts. I type but I don't really feel anything.
I want a friend. Maybe a friend with a baby hamster. T_T