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I cried when I left OP for the last time.... In that city anyway. I've gone there for the past two years and formed a really strong bond with one of the therapists. For a long time I wondered why I was crying so much, when I didn't even cry for any of the other huge changes that have taken place. I think it's because I was worried about slipping backwards again, and because I don't think anyone will be as good as that woman I saw every week.
I'm really depressed. I don't know how this is possible because the medication should numb that at least. I've had the exact same meal for breakfast lunch and dinner for the past two days. I can't stop grocery shopping, and thinking of food. I want to go back to hunger. I do. I do, because I'm so lonely I feel like I could die from it anyway...
I'm so lonely I could die.
I'm so lonely I should die.
Going to a psychiatrist on Tuesday. What if he can't fix anything? I feel powerless.
I'm really depressed. I don't know how this is possible because the medication should numb that at least. I've had the exact same meal for breakfast lunch and dinner for the past two days. I can't stop grocery shopping, and thinking of food. I want to go back to hunger. I do. I do, because I'm so lonely I feel like I could die from it anyway...
I'm so lonely I could die.
I'm so lonely I should die.
Going to a psychiatrist on Tuesday. What if he can't fix anything? I feel powerless.