General suckiness
I don't know why but I've really been negative and angry lately. I'm also feeling a bit paranoid and hostile. Maybe cause I haven't done CBT in over a month? Or is it my medication that's pooping out on me? Either way isn't a good thing. People have suggested that I increase my meds, but I really don't want to. 60 mgs is apparently not much different from 40 mgs. Even the company says so. If it's the CBT that's lacking, why am I such a messed up human being that I need to have it or I start losing my mind?
The funny part is that I haven't gone back because I think she was pissed at me last time. I guess that falls into passive-agressive behavior? Avoidance? Argh. I wish I didn't think of myself as damaged goods but I think I really do.
A professional recently asked me when my first major depressive phase was.
I said probably 11.
I could tell that she didn't believe it. And she's a registered psychologist.
She asked me how long it lasted.
"I don't know" I replied "It's hard to say. Months? Years?"
She was really pressuring me for something specific. The truth is that I think I've had major depression for my entire life. Shouldn't she know that this exists? I tried to convey this to her and she didn't go for it.
WTF. Experts are clueless sometimes.
The funny part is that I haven't gone back because I think she was pissed at me last time. I guess that falls into passive-agressive behavior? Avoidance? Argh. I wish I didn't think of myself as damaged goods but I think I really do.
A professional recently asked me when my first major depressive phase was.
I said probably 11.
I could tell that she didn't believe it. And she's a registered psychologist.
She asked me how long it lasted.
"I don't know" I replied "It's hard to say. Months? Years?"
She was really pressuring me for something specific. The truth is that I think I've had major depression for my entire life. Shouldn't she know that this exists? I tried to convey this to her and she didn't go for it.
WTF. Experts are clueless sometimes.