It's the human touch in this world that counts....

Apr 07, 2004 13:27

It's the human touch in this world that counts, the touch of your hand in mine
It means much more to the feinting heart than shelter bread or wine.........

I have that song in my head...the song I don't think anyone else at camp knows 'cept for me, but oh well. I still have it in my head. I might go play it on guitar soon just cuz I can.

Anyway, I realized today how much I really really really want it to be camp now. I want to hang out with camp people, I want to play with kids in a summer environment and I want to hang out in Quakertown, as so very sad as that sounds. hahaha. But at the same time I really want to stay here. I don't want to leave the friends I've made here, and I definitely do not want any of them to leave. I know that when I come back here in the Fall, some of the people that i have gotten to know this season will not be here, and that makes me SUPER sad. You know how you sorta start to associate certain people with a place, and then every time you think of that person you think of that place? Like Blossom and Jinx and Sunshine and Whosah and Treza and Chick and Bberry and Fruitcup in a way (But since she's family, not the same way as for everyone else) are for camp. It's like camp doesn't actually need to be there, but if those people are around, camp comes to us. It's really neat. But that's how it feels like kinda for some people here. If they're around, it makes everything happy and fun, but if they're not, I feel like it'll just be weird. But maybe that's just me not liking change very much or something. Change is a weird thing sometimes.

On another note, Chad, the APD here in charge of the ropes course stuff, ordered me a set or Lobster claws that is ME SIZE!!!! I doubt that anyone else will want to use it except for me because they will be too short for everyone else, but I was sooooooooo......impressed/touched/amazed/excited that he went out of his way to SPECIAL ORDER a pair of claws complete with sorbers JUST FOR ME!!!!!! They fit me almost exactly!!! I'm so excited! I'm gonna HAVE to go play on them this weekend just because I can. Now, if only camp could do the same thing.....hmmmmmm.......

Anyway. Yea. I'm in a lot happier mood than I've been in a while, because I sorted some things out with Chris last night. I thought I had done something to tick him off so much that he didn't want me to ever hang out with him again, but he let me come over last night because I said I would give him a back massage for his birthday, and we talked. And now I understand some things, and maybe, just maybe, he understands some things too. So hopefully things will be better a bit. At least I know he doesn't hate me and that he's not really angry at me. I still am going to be REALLY sad when he goes back to the military in August, because it means that I will most likely never see him again. But that's how things go sometimes. Hopefully if travel is a part of his new posting in the military i can meet up with him sometimes and see him. But we'll see.

Anyway, have a good day all! It's beautiful here. Hope everyone else is doing ok. Treza, I hope you find your sanity soon!!!!
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