It's "Challenging" yet "Consuming"

Mar 02, 2013 16:29

Been 5 months living in KL, so far perfectly okay,...drowning myself into thesis in the meantime still doing my part time job.

Hectic yet fun. I overwhelm with this routine. enjoying my job as career women or office employee seems quite "challenging". lately, I hate the word "challenging". I realized it quite late that "challenging" in business dictionary means "difficult", by all means, we need to push a little effort to make it happened. yeah...but that's life any way, we have to struggle for everything what we eager to have in life, am i right?

It swept me away 5 month ago, the devil plan why I encouraged myself to join exchange student at Malaysia. No other reason as keeping myself closely to Valentino Rossi, Motogp living legend, whom I admired since kids. I always find a way to keep me staying any longer in KL strengthening my belief that I want-to-stay-here because of Valentino Rossi. And yes, I made it. I finally took Marketing concentration at UM. happily watched #Motogp Sepang this year. and then, there will be Motogp Test which was held last month. Still, I can find any reason to stay longer by working and doing my thesis at the same place. It's like brilliant solution for everything I need in life. I get paid while doing my thesis, most importantly I can watch Motogp test. It's more than win-win solution.

Matter of fact, it dragged me nowhere. yes, I sacrifice a lot more than people know, it cost me bucks of money, time spent with my friend and family, my thesis as well and many more. I ended up living alone. I found myself struggling alone for my own shake. Thought that I am indeed egoist jerk that live for my hedonic esteem. And what I got at that time? I'm so overwhelm with the job until I couldn't find peace in my friendship relationship, because I use my own money, so, the budget is quite tight, and then my thesis now is dragging nowhere. because too many distraction, I find its extremely "challenging" to manage everything well. Oh gosh! I use that word, see how it described perfectly the insecurity right...ck..ck...ck

At last, I have some issues with my colleagues, seriously, the emptiness feeling my heart until I got numb. I couldn't concentrating myself for anything, it's nearly make me loss everything. my job, my thesis and yes, at that time, I lost a chance to watch 1st Motogp Test at Sepang because of the intense work. How I realize that I'm in huge loss. it swayed me. distracted me from my main reason I'm staying here. I felt left and lonely. Poor me.

Til 28th February 2012, I marked it as the most-unforgettable-day ever,..it was the day I found my reason that make me stay in KL for any longer. For the second times, I met my inspiring living legend, Valentino Rossi. I realize that lately, I'm so torn, always make and repeat myself, easily feel guilty for what I have done, until that day, there's huge persuasive voice from the deepest of my heart that I have to go to Sepang, Because of work, I couldn't make it to Sepang Test #2, until I found my vale-mates, another inspiring fans, Dian's post on her blog, here, that really slaps me hard that push me till end to meet her in Sepang, At that time, again, I feel hopeless and helpless. I arrived at Sepang at 6.10 pm, yes, the test is officially over, some fans who wear vale's t-shirt exited from Sepang Circuit entrance, talking so enthusiasm about the excited moment Valentino Rossi did best at #2 Sepang Test.

Well, I was so sad, heart-breaking, taking a long haul to meet mommy Dian, and ended up at the gate of Sepang circuit, until DM Twitter from mommy Dian really drove my destiny to the untold journey where I stood outside the glass room where my-only-man Valentino Rossi was doing his interview about the test. I admirably enjoying a good sip of this enigmatic creatures on earth, He's Valentino Rossi, it's been an hour visit to journey to watch him in this very close distance. I watch every move he made, explore every inch part of his body, his curly hair, even when he made a call, stood beyond the table, blinked his eyes for many times. It's the peace feeling I can't even described well. Yes, I'm of the top of the heaven. *even I'm teary when I write this, remembering the time I consume him more than 1 hour* and seriously, it's addicting! it bolds my reason to keep close to him. I want to meet him again! I want to watch him this closely again! I want to consume him again! this is the sweet-unexpected-moment in my life.

I took a picture with Valentino Rossi's best friend while waiting for him!



The most-precious-treasure ever! my passion is "Vale's sign collection" YES!


Vale's interview by italian journalist :)


See you again this October Valentino Rossi! Thanks for inspiring my life! I devoted my love for you, endlessly~
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