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A year from now I will probably look back again and say today I was much meaner, much stupider, and many other things.
Hah, I was wrong.
Everday I long for that me that would break out of my nice hollow shell. This pretty smiling face who lives the pretty wants-to-be-smiling life with the smiling achievements adorning the shameless facade that is my wall wants to be truly what is inside. I am not an empty shell, I am definitely the impassioned cynist and I have much to say about my life and what I feel about what has been, what is, and what will be. I'm an angry person with many angry, resentful feelings that want to explode on the world. People have pushed me to my points before, I really can't wait till the day that I totally get pushed over and explode.
--(11/28/2004)
Well, I'll be...The days have been a goin' with many a explosion. It's quite a bit worse than I thought it would be.
Anyway, I have a lot of feelings of angst that are normal. I say people never learn and it's true. It's true that I learn faster than most people and that's what makes me "smart." But I'm still human and though I learn many lessons within a few minutes, there is always that one that I never seem to learn. Someone called me tedious, and though it might have just been word association, his thoughts were true. I am tedious. I write the same old entries every year with the same old angsty complaints, the only thing that changes is the names of the people I'm complaining about. So as much as I would like to sit here and write down the angsty things in another version of my own words, being tedious is bothersome and upsets me quite a bit. So I'll save myself the trouble:
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