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So Hatched is over now and I admit I'm a little sad but also really excited about all the future work it has made available to me. I have been asked to audition for a show happening in December, I want to continue working on my play, I have classes at St Martins for the rest of the year, I am doing the drama school auditions with some St Martins folk, AND I have a whole heap of creative new friends who love all the same stuff that I do. It is fucking brilliant!!!!!!
I am a little worn out and still have a few things on before I can refocus. 4 of my Brit buddies are here for a few days. I saw them last nigth though they were a little deflated and not so excited about being in Melbourne. I hope to change that for them. They will be coming to my birthday bash on friday night which will hopefully go as well as I imagine it to. Dante's for the first half of the evening and then moving on to maybe the night cat. That sounds pretty Beatnik.
So Jan is leaving in December. We dicussed this about a month ago and things have been great between us since then. I cried till I choked but I think I am coming to terms with it. I had another cry last night, but I'm not sure exactly what it was for. Because I know he is going, or because I miss what we had at the beginning and it is like a phase of my life is ending and I can't do anything about it. I know I'll see him again, but it is hard to imagine life without him. Will I be one of those people who will sit and mourn for their lost lover, or will I find an immediate replacement, or will I just enjoy my own company for a while? I like being in a relationship. I like having a best friend who is always around.
I will probably immerse myself in projects and work so that I won't notice how crap I feel, and eventually I'll forget about it, repress it. Thats probably not very healthy.
Fiona got back yesterday. I think I'll give her a call. Missed that bitch.
I am a little worn out and still have a few things on before I can refocus. 4 of my Brit buddies are here for a few days. I saw them last nigth though they were a little deflated and not so excited about being in Melbourne. I hope to change that for them. They will be coming to my birthday bash on friday night which will hopefully go as well as I imagine it to. Dante's for the first half of the evening and then moving on to maybe the night cat. That sounds pretty Beatnik.
So Jan is leaving in December. We dicussed this about a month ago and things have been great between us since then. I cried till I choked but I think I am coming to terms with it. I had another cry last night, but I'm not sure exactly what it was for. Because I know he is going, or because I miss what we had at the beginning and it is like a phase of my life is ending and I can't do anything about it. I know I'll see him again, but it is hard to imagine life without him. Will I be one of those people who will sit and mourn for their lost lover, or will I find an immediate replacement, or will I just enjoy my own company for a while? I like being in a relationship. I like having a best friend who is always around.
I will probably immerse myself in projects and work so that I won't notice how crap I feel, and eventually I'll forget about it, repress it. Thats probably not very healthy.
Fiona got back yesterday. I think I'll give her a call. Missed that bitch.