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I realized that you haven't really forgiven if you still expect something out of the situation.
You let me down.
I kept subconsciously expecting you to make it up to me.
I kept searching your life for signs that you would soon, but usually found more evidence of the opposite
which made it hurt all over again.
I like this new mindset. We're cool. You don't owe me anything. We're straight, brah.
And now, although he's far from the person I envision raising my children, there's someone who hasn't let me down yet. Who, in fact, stuck with me even though I all but neglected him all summer. Who put up with my major PMS without a sarcastic remark. Who keeps planning things that he "doesn't think" he can tell me about, that turn into winery trips and whatever I'm doing tomorrow. Who bought me John Mayer tickets and doesn't want me to pay for them. This is very cool, and if there was ever a time where my vice grip loosened up, maybe enough to wrench my fingers open and let go...
You let me down.
I kept subconsciously expecting you to make it up to me.
I kept searching your life for signs that you would soon, but usually found more evidence of the opposite
which made it hurt all over again.
I like this new mindset. We're cool. You don't owe me anything. We're straight, brah.
And now, although he's far from the person I envision raising my children, there's someone who hasn't let me down yet. Who, in fact, stuck with me even though I all but neglected him all summer. Who put up with my major PMS without a sarcastic remark. Who keeps planning things that he "doesn't think" he can tell me about, that turn into winery trips and whatever I'm doing tomorrow. Who bought me John Mayer tickets and doesn't want me to pay for them. This is very cool, and if there was ever a time where my vice grip loosened up, maybe enough to wrench my fingers open and let go...