this is completely random and entirely unreasonable, but...
whenever i go to a library or bookstore, i get incredibly overwhelmed and freaked out. sometimes even to the point of having a panic attack. it's not that i dislike books or reading, my brain just sort of...overloads at being presented with so many options. which is probably why i never really read.
this carries over to every area of my life, though - i have A LOT of trouble with restaurant menus. i can read them, and i can see the pictures, but none of the information really makes it to my brain. i end up looking like a moron, pouring over the same page for minutes on end. which is probably why i find one meal i like from a restaurant and only ever order that.
and i suppose, in a way, this extends into my interactions with people too. i'm so overloaded by information when i'm in a group - facial expressions, body language, wording, tone - that i just go silent as my brain tries in vain to keep up.
i really dunno where this whole thing came from, but huzzah for being able to babble it out. i've been abnormally quiet lately. which does not feel awesome.
anywho. i miss you, elljay. hopefully i will have some writings to post soon, for the ideas have been gnawing at me!
i think i'm about to be dragged to dinner, so i shall take my leave. <3 /wave.