Jeremy
Jeremy will be starting kindergarten in one week exactly. I finally found a clear book bag for him to take to school. Sunday we're supposed to take all of his supplies to the school for orientation. I can't believe that he will be 5 years old in a week and a half. It doesn't seem like its been that long since he was born. It makes me kind of sad because it seems he's growing up so quickly. Don't get me wrong, I'm proud that he is growing up but in the deep dark parts of my mind I wish I could go back into time whenever he was born and have it all to do over again. There's lots of things I would have done differently with him. He means the world to me even if I don't show it half the time like I should.
If I had it to do all over again I would have taken up much more time with him and would have found a way to get out from underneath my mother sooner. Because of me not trying to do better and get him away from my mom, he didn't learn how to talk properly until he was two years old. I listened to what my mother told me and we stayed locked up in my room until she was gone from the house. He didn't deserve any of that. At least now that we are away from my mom's house he's grown to be a very intelligent little boy. One night when I had put him into bed he was still trying to talk to me even though I had came back to the living room. He said "Momma! I will be a genius one day! I'm not one right now but I will be!". He will do extremely well in school I am sure.
Most people seem to think he will be expelled from kindergarten because he is so hyper active. I get so tired of hearing it from everyone and it takes all I have not to scream in their faces. I try to defend him but it does no good. I had him on medicine for his hyper activity one time but it did no good. Josh's little boy Christian came to mind earlier when I thought about everyone telling me Jeremy would be expelled. Christian and Jeremy have a lot in common and both act the exact same way. But Christian never got expelled from school. So I called my mother up and reminded her about Christian but of course my mom could only rant and rave that she didn't care and she thought that Jeremy would get kicked out.
My mom seems to get upset sometimes because Jeremy treats her differently than everyone else. Jeremy refuses to tell my mother goodbye and give her loves when its time to leave from her house. Mom says she doesn't understand why he does it and thinks that Jeremy hates her. Jeremy doesn't hate my mom. As a matter of fact he wants to go see her everyday. Its my belief that the reason Jeremy won't show her love is because my mom constantly yells at him. If I were him I would be the same way. Of course I can't tell my mom any of that.
I'm trying so hard to work with Jeremy on his manners and his tantrums so he won't be in trouble in school all the time. My family tends to think that beating the crap out of him all the time will do him good. For example, at lunch today Jeremy was doing something wrong (I can't remember what it is now. Damn this old age!). Dad and mom started telling me to take him outside and beat him. So I took my belt out of my purse and told Jeremy we had to go outside to have a talk. Jeremy made the biggest scene all the way out of the restaurant. I didn't spank him though. I just had a real good talk with him and told him that if he didn't settle down, eat his dinner like he is supposed to that the next time we had to go outside I was going to spank him. It seemed to do a world of good... but only for a little while. We went back in and he sat down quietly and started eating. My parents said "See spanking him did good..." so I told them what I had done. But after about 10 minutes he started to get cranky and playing with his food. Dad announced it was time to leave. So we go outside and Jeremy hightails it across the parking lot with me and my dad right behind him. My dad tried to talk to him but Jeremy wouldn't look at him or listen so my dad got mad and left. I ended up spanking him but of course... that didn't really do any good.
I take his video games away from him whenever he is bad because that seems to be what means the most to him. It doesn't do any good though. I send him to his room, that does no good. I can't find anything that will help his behavior improve. People think that I just let my son go wild and I do nothing about it but that's the farthest from the truth. Jeremy acts just fine and listens whenever we are alone. But if other people are around he gets hyper. Apparently people just excite him way too much. I guess that's partly my fault because I hide in my house so much.
Anyways, tomorrow I'm supposed to take him to a new daycare to enroll him for after school care. It really bothers me that he will have to ride the school bus. But it seems that this will be the only way for me to get my mom to keep him at night if I have to work. Although I wanted to keep him with me this last week since I won't be able to keep him at home whenever I want to anymore, I think I'm gonna let him stay at the daycare so he'll know that's where he's supposed to get off of the bus. While he's there I'm going to go ahead and get on the work bandwagon again. That way I can get up some money real quick to be able to move out of here. Then hopefully by January I will be able to schedule around work and go to school part time.
My baby boy will show the people of this world one day that they were wrong about him and we will laugh in their faces.
If I had it to do all over again I would have taken up much more time with him and would have found a way to get out from underneath my mother sooner. Because of me not trying to do better and get him away from my mom, he didn't learn how to talk properly until he was two years old. I listened to what my mother told me and we stayed locked up in my room until she was gone from the house. He didn't deserve any of that. At least now that we are away from my mom's house he's grown to be a very intelligent little boy. One night when I had put him into bed he was still trying to talk to me even though I had came back to the living room. He said "Momma! I will be a genius one day! I'm not one right now but I will be!". He will do extremely well in school I am sure.
Most people seem to think he will be expelled from kindergarten because he is so hyper active. I get so tired of hearing it from everyone and it takes all I have not to scream in their faces. I try to defend him but it does no good. I had him on medicine for his hyper activity one time but it did no good. Josh's little boy Christian came to mind earlier when I thought about everyone telling me Jeremy would be expelled. Christian and Jeremy have a lot in common and both act the exact same way. But Christian never got expelled from school. So I called my mother up and reminded her about Christian but of course my mom could only rant and rave that she didn't care and she thought that Jeremy would get kicked out.
My mom seems to get upset sometimes because Jeremy treats her differently than everyone else. Jeremy refuses to tell my mother goodbye and give her loves when its time to leave from her house. Mom says she doesn't understand why he does it and thinks that Jeremy hates her. Jeremy doesn't hate my mom. As a matter of fact he wants to go see her everyday. Its my belief that the reason Jeremy won't show her love is because my mom constantly yells at him. If I were him I would be the same way. Of course I can't tell my mom any of that.
I'm trying so hard to work with Jeremy on his manners and his tantrums so he won't be in trouble in school all the time. My family tends to think that beating the crap out of him all the time will do him good. For example, at lunch today Jeremy was doing something wrong (I can't remember what it is now. Damn this old age!). Dad and mom started telling me to take him outside and beat him. So I took my belt out of my purse and told Jeremy we had to go outside to have a talk. Jeremy made the biggest scene all the way out of the restaurant. I didn't spank him though. I just had a real good talk with him and told him that if he didn't settle down, eat his dinner like he is supposed to that the next time we had to go outside I was going to spank him. It seemed to do a world of good... but only for a little while. We went back in and he sat down quietly and started eating. My parents said "See spanking him did good..." so I told them what I had done. But after about 10 minutes he started to get cranky and playing with his food. Dad announced it was time to leave. So we go outside and Jeremy hightails it across the parking lot with me and my dad right behind him. My dad tried to talk to him but Jeremy wouldn't look at him or listen so my dad got mad and left. I ended up spanking him but of course... that didn't really do any good.
I take his video games away from him whenever he is bad because that seems to be what means the most to him. It doesn't do any good though. I send him to his room, that does no good. I can't find anything that will help his behavior improve. People think that I just let my son go wild and I do nothing about it but that's the farthest from the truth. Jeremy acts just fine and listens whenever we are alone. But if other people are around he gets hyper. Apparently people just excite him way too much. I guess that's partly my fault because I hide in my house so much.
Anyways, tomorrow I'm supposed to take him to a new daycare to enroll him for after school care. It really bothers me that he will have to ride the school bus. But it seems that this will be the only way for me to get my mom to keep him at night if I have to work. Although I wanted to keep him with me this last week since I won't be able to keep him at home whenever I want to anymore, I think I'm gonna let him stay at the daycare so he'll know that's where he's supposed to get off of the bus. While he's there I'm going to go ahead and get on the work bandwagon again. That way I can get up some money real quick to be able to move out of here. Then hopefully by January I will be able to schedule around work and go to school part time.
My baby boy will show the people of this world one day that they were wrong about him and we will laugh in their faces.