ever wake up from a dream mad at someone?

[motoe]

i had a dream last night. i don't often dream unless i'm caught up on sleep, but i slept in the last two mornings. when i do have dreams, they're usually about things i've been thinking about, people i've been around, places i've been. i very rarely dream about someone. i dream about doing something, and someone happens to be there. this person appears with or without the traits of his real-life counterpart. sometimes the someone that is there doesn't even stay the same as the story develops. they'll transform into someone else two or three times in a way so natural that it hardly seems significant to me at the time.

that's what makes this one so different. it was about one person. one unchanging, true to life person that was with me the whole time. but it wasn't someone i've seen recently. it wasn't someone i've talked to or even thought about recently. it was a blast from the past.

she's the one thing that never seems to go away. no matter what else is happening in my life, no matter what or who is occupying my mind, even when i think it's been too long since we've spoken and she's gone for good, she always somehow finds her way back into my head. it won't cross my mind for months and months, but ... then... there it is.

last night we kissed. if i've ever had a dream kiss before, it wasn't like this. i can remember the whole thing, so vivid, so real. but it will stay a dream. something real with her doesn't make sense. it never did. i haven't thought seriously that it might in years. i know that it won't. but sometimes i'm reminded that some of the best things i've ever had are the ones that made the least sense. i can't help but wonder if it ever crosses her mind too.