SAD and ANNOYED
So pretty much i am so upset with the ways that a few of my friends are dealing with things. Friends with druggies and going to visit them when they have drug problems themselves. I cant be around it anymore and its sad to loose a good friend like her but its going to have to be done very soon. Its hard. I am a drug addict i have problems when it comes to that. Im strong enough today to see it and reject it and not feel like i missed out but proud of myself. ANd two sided people ya know, like oh im not friends with that person and then to see you really are, ITS SO FUCKING STUPID HOW PEOPLE HAVE TO LIE! I DONT GIVE A SHIT WHO MY FRIENDS ARE FRIENDS WITH BUT DONT LIE OR BE ASHAMED OF IT. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Its so highschool with them lately and i have stayed away for quite some time, Ya know as much as jessi has screwed me over with some things, i still do love her because she helped me through alot at one point and we had fun. I wont call everyday to hang but once in awhile to catch up is nice. I have a birthday coming up but do you think my friends have brought it up to say hey whats the plan when you get back from vegas to celebrate or before. NOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK THEM. I think the only person who has brought it up was stacie and considering she doesnt live out here and still bothers to ask was happy and sad at the same time. Happy that she thought of it but sad because she is the only one. Maybe im being selfish and over the top but i have no where to go to vent about this and im an emotional wreck. I would love to slam the door and stay in bed on the 29th instead of vegas. I threw a party for court and lex and made a point for them, Tanya is going out of town when she knew vegas was there bond said she is too busy to hang for it and jen and crys havent even brought it up- WHatever im done with my poor me for the day just really am not looking forward to this.