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oh christmas eve is gonna be sweet! im totally stoked =)
a lot of things have changed in these past 3 months but im happy seeing the way things are going and i have my family and friends and im content. ive also grown a lot as an editor just because of that one class... im really hoping the after effects class i take next semester goes well! i seriously dont know anything about doing animation or 2D images and im hoping this will broaden my knowledge.
if anything, i learned a few things from everything. Number one is that no matter how hard you try, you have no control over what other people think of you. I could get mad and start something and write in here about how immature people are but it doesnt matter. it'll have the same outcome and whether they like you or hate you, you cant change what other people think. i honestly dont want to get into everything because its no ones business what happened between me and spencer and the only people i have told absolutely everything to i trust whole heartedly because i know for a fact they support me no matter what. im not saying im perfect, it definitely is not one of those situations where i can say i did everything 110% right. i definitely could have handled things better and he couldve too and we're both moving on now. thats really all i have to say about that. im not even going to get into other stuff because im sure i have an extremely different opinion of why what happened really happened then the other person and there are 2 sides to every story. arguing about it would be stupid because im not going to change my mind and that person isnt going to change their mind either. we both wish the other person would grow up and though its unfortunate its also no one's business.
im tired of hiding behind an apathetic exterior and pretending i dont care about anything. yeah, im not gonna lie, everything that happened definitely made me upset and it was a lot more change than i really wanted but recently ive realized that a lot of good came out of it and i actually feel relieved. i made the closest friend ive ever had basically ever and i started working harder in work and school and i actually feel focused for once and i really know what i want out of life. =)
a lot of things have changed in these past 3 months but im happy seeing the way things are going and i have my family and friends and im content. ive also grown a lot as an editor just because of that one class... im really hoping the after effects class i take next semester goes well! i seriously dont know anything about doing animation or 2D images and im hoping this will broaden my knowledge.
if anything, i learned a few things from everything. Number one is that no matter how hard you try, you have no control over what other people think of you. I could get mad and start something and write in here about how immature people are but it doesnt matter. it'll have the same outcome and whether they like you or hate you, you cant change what other people think. i honestly dont want to get into everything because its no ones business what happened between me and spencer and the only people i have told absolutely everything to i trust whole heartedly because i know for a fact they support me no matter what. im not saying im perfect, it definitely is not one of those situations where i can say i did everything 110% right. i definitely could have handled things better and he couldve too and we're both moving on now. thats really all i have to say about that. im not even going to get into other stuff because im sure i have an extremely different opinion of why what happened really happened then the other person and there are 2 sides to every story. arguing about it would be stupid because im not going to change my mind and that person isnt going to change their mind either. we both wish the other person would grow up and though its unfortunate its also no one's business.
im tired of hiding behind an apathetic exterior and pretending i dont care about anything. yeah, im not gonna lie, everything that happened definitely made me upset and it was a lot more change than i really wanted but recently ive realized that a lot of good came out of it and i actually feel relieved. i made the closest friend ive ever had basically ever and i started working harder in work and school and i actually feel focused for once and i really know what i want out of life. =)