did i do anything wrong? (long time since i've posted)

[motleysue]

and i'm doing this only for me actually. I need a place to freak out about my new man... and my fears.

So if you read this..and have pearls of wisdom, i welcome you. If you read this, and want to pull me apart, move on...

I'm my own worst enemy...

Here goes...

I’m just sitting here…wondering what I did wrong. Did I do anything wrong?

The text went from funny to oneword responses.

No communication is communication right? But he’s sending little notes. But yes… yep, nope… cool… don’t really count for real words of communication do they?

I’m searching my brain… and I’m over thinking everything..

Its what I do. Its in my nature. I’m a virgo..and sometimes a basketcase. I victim of my own mind. I worry too much, think too hard…and hopefully am not self sabotaging the first real glimmer of love I’ve had in years.

My non rational brain says… something happened on his ride back from Atlanta… because the funny stopped then...and the one words started soon after.

He’s avoiding my questions about seeing each other.

I’m scared.

I’m scared at how much I care.
I’m scared that he’s “not that in to me” like the stupid book says.

I’m scared that I’m scaring him away.

I’m just scared.