You know, I've learned something today.
Well, I only have about 15 minuets before I scurry off to work, but I feel my innermonologe needs to be scripted. Since I watched the first disk of the thrid season of scrubs for the second time last night, I've had an inner monologe, and I've descovered something.
So last night when I dropped off Jenn at her house I realized something. When once I though I had an uber crush on this girl, I realized I really didn't. Even though the feelings were still there, and my mind still going a mile a minuet over everything once in a wile would bump back to her, it really was not her. No, see it was the consept she brought. It was her willingness to spend time with me and enjoy that time. Perhaps that is also why I had a big crush on Steph.
Anyway, back to the point. These crushes I seem to manufest just seem to be me falling head over heals for the consept, instead of the person. The consept of a hug, instead of the person who is delivering it. The consept of a kiss instead of that very speshil moment and conection it has. Call me a hopeless romantic, but it took me this long to actualy, not only realize this, but see that it makes sence.
Anway, thats all I really had to say.
So last night when I dropped off Jenn at her house I realized something. When once I though I had an uber crush on this girl, I realized I really didn't. Even though the feelings were still there, and my mind still going a mile a minuet over everything once in a wile would bump back to her, it really was not her. No, see it was the consept she brought. It was her willingness to spend time with me and enjoy that time. Perhaps that is also why I had a big crush on Steph.
Anyway, back to the point. These crushes I seem to manufest just seem to be me falling head over heals for the consept, instead of the person. The consept of a hug, instead of the person who is delivering it. The consept of a kiss instead of that very speshil moment and conection it has. Call me a hopeless romantic, but it took me this long to actualy, not only realize this, but see that it makes sence.
Anway, thats all I really had to say.