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Jesus Christ... hahahah, so I just took a look at Keith's myspace, I don't know why but... whatever. I noticed he's with another girl already and while I felt about .001% of jealousy I took a step back and thought, poor girl. She's getting herself into a whole mess that she doesn't even know about. She'll learn eventually. And I just reminded myself that I have someone who is better than him that he can't even compare to. I have a boyfriend who spoils me, who does whatever he can to make me happy, he's incredibly sexy, I never get tired of him, I'm never embarrassed about him and GOD I just love him so effing much. I can't get over it! hahah Just typing all that out reminded me again of why I'm with HIM and not fucking Keith. Adrian has been there for me nonstop, thank god. He has a CAR, MONEY, getting an EDUCATION, just... wow. I really fucking upgraded. And I honestly can't stop talking about him to everyone. The sex is AMAZING, he makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world, unlike Keith. He doesn't do drugs, he is so supportive of my and all my decisions, when I break down he's there to hold me and tell me everything will be okay, he actually makes my life BETTER. I LIKE to get dressed up for him and look pretty because he's worth it. He saved me from going over the brink, before we got back together I was attempting suicide everyday, constantly thinking about ways to end my life. When we got back together he gave me a reason to LIVE. And to not only live but to FLOURISH. I WANT better things for my life because of him. His dedication to school has inspired me to begin school again and find myself a passion. He has so much drive for life and he won't let anyone get in the way. We're each other's cheerleaders and I can actually see us getting married and having a family someday! We talk about it all the time, he is constantly trying to improve our relationship and basically makes it his JOB to make me happy. I've never felt so spoiled by someone before, especially a boy! He takes me out for breakfast, lunch, dinner, he makes time in his ridiculously busy schedule just to see me for half an hour, it's just... like a fairy tale relationship that I can't believe I'm getting to have NOW. Right when I've lost everything there's an incredibly handsome, supportive boy to make me feel like I have everything. And I know he feels the same. Wow, just putting all that on here made me so happy. I feel like I've found my soulmate. The One. My Prince Charming. My everything. :]

I know it sounds like I'm obsessing but I feel like I have a whole new lease on life! I have the energy to do things now, I don't feel like I'm letting life pass me by in a fog, I feel reborn, I feel HAPPY, I feel like I've never felt before. :D