mckaylah
since the start of this month with los dias de muerto coming up i've been feeling guilty knowing full well i never got to say goodbye to her i know this sounds selfpitieing but she was always had a big place in my heart and with her gone i suddenly feel empty and hungering to replace the emptiness. inever got to go to the funeral or say goodbye and i wish i could've and at one point i even pushed her into the back of my mind and now i feel awful for doing these things and complaining asbout such stupid trivial things i remember one of my first memories i ever saw her and it still brings a smile and a tear to my face my mom and dad and i went up to glauster to see them we went the beach and she was always so nice to me i remember boardwalks and water squirting rubber lizards tired parents and shell collecting in the cold and that's the memory it's kinda sad how i can't remember more than this and i've got to stop righting because i'm getting too upset