Coronary Bypass Surgery
So among the other things going on in the last couple weeks, my dad needs tripple bypass surgery. It is going to be on the 16th of this month. I talked to my dad for about an hour on the phone tonight & have been visiting him as often as possible since he has rceived his dagnosis.
April is visiting from texas in a week and should be here during the surgery. This is good news. My nephew Ethan will not be coming because he is still in school. Probably he'd be mostly trouble do deal with in a tough situation so this is for the best. Although I do look forward to his visit this coming summer.
Makes me think about losing dad. This would be a very unfortunate circumstance. I was hoping to keep him a few years longer. It has been difficult because in a lot of ways we have become emotionally estranged since his re-marriage. He does not think of April & I as family now, so much as "former" family. He's detached in a weird way which she & I have both conferred about. Not sure if it is a male thing of following the woman when it comes to family, or his mourning & loss of my mom & a coping mechanism. Of course he doesn't notice it or have any idea what we're on about, but it is obvious to almost anyone else. At holiday events for instance, Debbie's kids have been known to ask "where is Brent."
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I am in great shape. I have been riding my bike very hard & doing vertical crunches on my pullup bar. People have been noticing. I feel more myself physically. Even while I was depressed I was working out hard & eating better. So now that I am in a better place, my work is paying emotional dividends. I do try to get a boost even out of bad things. And this fitness boost was something that even feeling suicidal could not rob me of. And now that I am capable of feeling something positve, it is there for me.
April is visiting from texas in a week and should be here during the surgery. This is good news. My nephew Ethan will not be coming because he is still in school. Probably he'd be mostly trouble do deal with in a tough situation so this is for the best. Although I do look forward to his visit this coming summer.
Makes me think about losing dad. This would be a very unfortunate circumstance. I was hoping to keep him a few years longer. It has been difficult because in a lot of ways we have become emotionally estranged since his re-marriage. He does not think of April & I as family now, so much as "former" family. He's detached in a weird way which she & I have both conferred about. Not sure if it is a male thing of following the woman when it comes to family, or his mourning & loss of my mom & a coping mechanism. Of course he doesn't notice it or have any idea what we're on about, but it is obvious to almost anyone else. At holiday events for instance, Debbie's kids have been known to ask "where is Brent."
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I am in great shape. I have been riding my bike very hard & doing vertical crunches on my pullup bar. People have been noticing. I feel more myself physically. Even while I was depressed I was working out hard & eating better. So now that I am in a better place, my work is paying emotional dividends. I do try to get a boost even out of bad things. And this fitness boost was something that even feeling suicidal could not rob me of. And now that I am capable of feeling something positve, it is there for me.