people who turn. & other news
I just had another in an endless string of alienating experiences.
Received a poison pen letter & another message being told my motives were suspicious. I am very tired of defending myself to people. If you're so weak that you can't resist calling me up crying when I have asked for some space, how is that a situation that my "motives" (suspicious or otherwise) have anything to do with> If you flip flop & change your minds; go ahead. But it's always with the kinife on the way out. - Thanks for that.
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This happens on the heels of going through a really terrible reunion that threw me for a loop & had me even less stabalized than usual. When I do not engage with people I actually have happy days, days where I feel lucky to be alive & have what I have.
see also: The Bride Stripped Bare By Her Bachelors, Even http://mostuncertain.livejournal.com/328783.html
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Earlier this week dad cancelled a movie night with myself, my cousin Tim, & my uncle Anthony. He had gone to UCI for a stress test & they wanted to submit him to some further testing. He was in the hopsital for 3 days in all when he had just gone in for 2 hours of testing. He needs tripple bypass surgery.
He has scheduled his surgery for the 16th & mys sister might be coming out from Texas. It would be very nice to have a blood realtion here for us to confer with. Reminds me that I am bound to lose my dad pretty soon. Hopefully not for several more years though.
Brent
Received a poison pen letter & another message being told my motives were suspicious. I am very tired of defending myself to people. If you're so weak that you can't resist calling me up crying when I have asked for some space, how is that a situation that my "motives" (suspicious or otherwise) have anything to do with> If you flip flop & change your minds; go ahead. But it's always with the kinife on the way out. - Thanks for that.
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This happens on the heels of going through a really terrible reunion that threw me for a loop & had me even less stabalized than usual. When I do not engage with people I actually have happy days, days where I feel lucky to be alive & have what I have.
see also: The Bride Stripped Bare By Her Bachelors, Even http://mostuncertain.livejournal.com/328783.html
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Earlier this week dad cancelled a movie night with myself, my cousin Tim, & my uncle Anthony. He had gone to UCI for a stress test & they wanted to submit him to some further testing. He was in the hopsital for 3 days in all when he had just gone in for 2 hours of testing. He needs tripple bypass surgery.
He has scheduled his surgery for the 16th & mys sister might be coming out from Texas. It would be very nice to have a blood realtion here for us to confer with. Reminds me that I am bound to lose my dad pretty soon. Hopefully not for several more years though.
Brent