Change of heart?
I don't know. Yesterday I was thinking a piece of me died in Georgia.
Today things seems to be turning around. I'm still incredibly socially oafish, but I seem to have more contact with a greater number of people.
I attribute this to - or will try to continue this growth through - the advice of a guest speaker in one of my classes: "What you think you are is what you will be."
Now I'm going to think of exactly what I want to be. I think I already have most of it.
Unfortunately, what I am doesn't seem to attract the bitches.
Bitches meaning girls willing to hook up. Or do some kind of a relationship thing. It's not meant as a sexist insult. Though guys catch enough flak, maybe women deserve a few back. I also think it's unfair that I be lumped in stereotypically with the guys gettin ass (for whom the negative perceptions of 'guy' are suspended until AFTER the girl gets what she wants. Perception fucking sucks).
Which reminds me. I actually heard the "we're too close of friends to do anything" line yesterday. It wasn't with someone I really wanted to do something with (in particular), but it came up as a strange hypothetical. This really pisses me off. I get it this line fairly regularly. I think I need to be an asshole, which I think I naturally am anyway. I just need to not restrain it so much. Apparently that's what people want: a sorta-friendly asshole.
Damn it, I hate when I use a journal entry to piss myself off.
Oh yeah, I need to call Kim. AND GINA!!!!
Today things seems to be turning around. I'm still incredibly socially oafish, but I seem to have more contact with a greater number of people.
I attribute this to - or will try to continue this growth through - the advice of a guest speaker in one of my classes: "What you think you are is what you will be."
Now I'm going to think of exactly what I want to be. I think I already have most of it.
Unfortunately, what I am doesn't seem to attract the bitches.
Bitches meaning girls willing to hook up. Or do some kind of a relationship thing. It's not meant as a sexist insult. Though guys catch enough flak, maybe women deserve a few back. I also think it's unfair that I be lumped in stereotypically with the guys gettin ass (for whom the negative perceptions of 'guy' are suspended until AFTER the girl gets what she wants. Perception fucking sucks).
Which reminds me. I actually heard the "we're too close of friends to do anything" line yesterday. It wasn't with someone I really wanted to do something with (in particular), but it came up as a strange hypothetical. This really pisses me off. I get it this line fairly regularly. I think I need to be an asshole, which I think I naturally am anyway. I just need to not restrain it so much. Apparently that's what people want: a sorta-friendly asshole.
Damn it, I hate when I use a journal entry to piss myself off.
Oh yeah, I need to call Kim. AND GINA!!!!