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A few things. Descriptions like hyperreflectiveness and autocentric have lead me to the conclusion that I am a schizoid. I am a passive-aggressive schizoid and there's no doubt about it. It just pisses me off because everything I read is saying that I'm basically going to die alone because of how severely detached I am from everyone, and that psychiatrists don't work because we're liars who don't open up. There's someone special out there that can break all this shit down, Wikipedia won't tell you that though.
My mom is getting a double mastectomy on April 2nd because she has breast cancer. Shits insane, completely out of the blue. But they caught it early enough, she sounded fine when I talked to her. I hope I don't get it, I'd rather die.
I spent 17 hours in bed today. I hate being alive lately.
I fucked this guy who owns a bar, a restaurant and he's also Ryan's landlord. He's 46, Asian and covered in tattoos. I knew I needed a guy almost twice my age, he knows that he's doing. But sex is just really awkward, I've concluded. I need a steady dude that I trust.
My mom is getting a double mastectomy on April 2nd because she has breast cancer. Shits insane, completely out of the blue. But they caught it early enough, she sounded fine when I talked to her. I hope I don't get it, I'd rather die.
I spent 17 hours in bed today. I hate being alive lately.
I fucked this guy who owns a bar, a restaurant and he's also Ryan's landlord. He's 46, Asian and covered in tattoos. I knew I needed a guy almost twice my age, he knows that he's doing. But sex is just really awkward, I've concluded. I need a steady dude that I trust.