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oh, my god. could my life be any worse right now?
tell me, what the hell do you do when your whole support system, your rock, your foundation completely crumbles? what the hell do you do when your dad is depressed because he's crippled, and your mom is depressed cause she can't do it all by herself? what the hell do you do when you see your dad break down and cry for the first time in your entire life? what the hell do you do when your dad is dependent on pain killers, and can hardly move without them? what the hell do you do?
i'm so fucking scared right now. i'm so lost. and confused. and oh my god. i have no idea what to do with myself. i can't do anything to help. i can't. i hate this feeling..
..i hate this life.
why can't everything just go back to normal? why can't i be happy? why does everything seem to get effing worse any way you go?
please help me...
i'm so lost.
tell me, what the hell do you do when your whole support system, your rock, your foundation completely crumbles? what the hell do you do when your dad is depressed because he's crippled, and your mom is depressed cause she can't do it all by herself? what the hell do you do when you see your dad break down and cry for the first time in your entire life? what the hell do you do when your dad is dependent on pain killers, and can hardly move without them? what the hell do you do?
i'm so fucking scared right now. i'm so lost. and confused. and oh my god. i have no idea what to do with myself. i can't do anything to help. i can't. i hate this feeling..
..i hate this life.
why can't everything just go back to normal? why can't i be happy? why does everything seem to get effing worse any way you go?
please help me...
i'm so lost.